Heroin overdose or...?

[Blacktarheroine]

Hello all. I am new here but have been hoping to find a community like this for some time. I am a drug addict who has been clean for about a year through methadone maintenance . I would really like to cbt via heroin overdose. My plan would be to cease my dose and basically every other medication that could interfere with tolerance. This has worked one time before in a very similar circumstance while I was actively using and on Mmt methadone and I was still able to stop my heart and respritory. It was so sweetly painless, but much to my dismay I was found. This time , it would be much easier to do given I have much more alone time, no tolerance, and I plan to use about 3-4 times as much as I did last time and combined with benzodiazepines and possibly other potentiators (I have a roommate but is rarely ever around, won't come into my room ). However, I am interested in other non narcotic methods, I am contemplating using alcohol/benzos to lower my survival instinct but perhaps another chemical substance... CO? SN? I am trying to do some more research... any suggestions/ resources pertaining to a way that would be close to painless and/or a high success rate that would be hard to get out of once initiated... would be appreciated. Also, I am fighting with the issue of when I would be found. I was thinking of finding a way to alert someone of having to check on me, like a timed email or something maybe about a day after (but not TOO soon) so that my body doesn't rot and traumatize my roommate or anything ...
Thanks for your time ...S

 

[Ben]

Hello all. I am new here but have been hoping to find a community like this for some time. I am a drug addict who has been clean for about a year through methadone maintenance . I would really like to cbt via heroin overdose. My plan would be to cease my dose and basically every other medication that could interfere with tolerance. This has worked one time before in a very similar circumstance while I was actively using and on Mmt methadone and I was still able to stop my heart and respritory. It was so sweetly painless, but much to my dismay I was found. This time , it would be much easier to do given I have much more alone time, no tolerance, and I plan to use about 3-4 times as much as I did last time and combined with benzodiazepines and possibly other potentiators (I have a roommate but is rarely ever around, won't come into my room ). However, I am interested in other non narcotic methods, I am contemplating using alcohol/benzos to lower my survival instinct but perhaps another chemical substance... CO? SN? I am trying to do some more research... any suggestions/ resources pertaining to a way that would be close to painless and/or a high success rate that would be hard to get out of once initiated... would be appreciated. Also, I am fighting with the issue of when I would be found. I was thinking of finding a way to alert someone of having to check on me, like a timed email or something maybe about a day after (but not TOO soon) so that my body doesn't rot and traumatize my roommate or anything ...
Thanks for your time ...S

Hello friend, there is a metric ton of information here regarding methods. If you're having trouble finding them, I will link them here for you! There are lots of options to consider.

I will say though, out of them all, a heroin overdose would be ranked pretty high in terms of effectiveness and peacefulness. The survival instinct does not care about your method. It will kick it before you inject, before you jump, before you enter your tent, or whatever the case may be.

 

[Blacktarheroine]

Hello friend, there is a metric ton of information here regarding methods. If you're having trouble finding them, I will link them here for you! There are lots of options to consider.

I will say though, out of them all, a heroin overdose would be ranked pretty high in terms of effectiveness and peacefulness. The survival instinct does not care about your method. It will kick it before you inject, before you jump, before you enter your tent, or whatever the case may be.

Thanks for the response. I am particularly attracted to the idea of death by some type of overdose/poisoning. As far as repercussions go, I don't really care what it looks like since it doesn't matter after you die. I think the people involved in my life wouldn't be surprised either. The only obstacle has been someone stumbling upon me too soon. So far I have tried two different types of intentional substance overdoses, hanging, and car accident which would have been successful if not interfered with, everything else has just been proof that I can't even kill myself right. I've just started exploring the threads a bit more. Quick is probably more priority over pain since I don't want to be found again. I've just started getting into the pph if you or anyone else knows about that... also I live in the states (Colorado) and am curious about availability of/resources for poisons etc..

 

[Ben]

Thanks for the response. I am particularly attracted to the idea of death by some type of overdose/poisoning. As far as repercussions go, I don't really care what it looks like since it doesn't matter after you die. I think the people involved in my life wouldn't be surprised either. The only obstacle has been someone stumbling upon me too soon. So far I have tried two different types of intentional substance overdoses, hanging, and car accident which would have been successful if not interfered with, everything else has just been proof that I can't even kill myself right. I've just started exploring the threads a bit more. Quick is probably more priority over pain since I don't want to be found again. I've just started getting into the pph if you or anyone else knows about that... also I live in the states (Colorado) and am curious about availability of/resources for poisons etc..

While yes, it doesn't matter after you die, I would still like to cause as little trauma to people who have to deal with me. Rescuers and family alike.

The chance of being found out is high unless you completely isolate yourself...and going far away by yourself isn't easy. For some, it's not even an option.

Don't feel bad about not beings able to kill yourself. Fails happen all the time, most if not all of us here have failed at least once.

The PPH is a very popular topic of discussion here. Have a read through this guide and see if anything connects with you:

https://sanctioned-suicide.net/threads/list-of-resources.3/

 

[eve2004]

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