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Mimsy
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- Aug 11, 2020
- 13
I am in a secure hospital on 1:1 observations. My preferred methods have been overdoses which I only narrowly survived, hence being sectioned and in hospital for one and a half years. My only option now seem to be ligature and I have tried a fair few times, how can I occluded the carotid artery and have quick unconsciousness? I find it hard not to be in a fair amount of distress which sometimes makes me gasp and alerts the staff. I am scared that I am just going to end up brain damaged and I need death. My only other thought was to hit the side of my head on a hard surface (I tried a metal radiator) in the hope of damage to the blood vessels under the temple and a brain bleed that staff would be unable to intervene with. To be honest I feel so angry that I have to use these unfamiliar and uncertain methods as I should be able to do it my way but I'm desperate now and would appreciate any suggestions.