rodie9k
Member
- Jan 5, 2022
- 26
Today I tried killing myself with the equivalent of 3.2 grams of diphenhydramine.
Everything went according to plan. I bought the drugs. Then left my room with only the drugs, a notebook, two pens, and enough money for a one-way taxi to nearby wilderness.
Didn't take my phone to avoid calling emergency. Didn't take additional money. Went somewhere secluded so I couldn't reach help. I had ensured nobody could save me.
after getting there, I found a couple dogs and played with them. I asked them if I should I do it and they didn't seem to say no. I traveled a bit and found a rock to sit on.
I started swallowing the benadryl. did exactly two thirds in (around 2 grams). then my stomach got upset and I puked. diphenhydramine treats nausea yet it caused nausea. I was bummed.
last week was one of the happiest I had ever been, because there was a way out of the misery. now I don't know. I feel mentally cornered by the rating.
everyone else is happy, and I'm cursed to be miserable and alive. is there any other way to die? one that works and kills without causing a scheme
Everything went according to plan. I bought the drugs. Then left my room with only the drugs, a notebook, two pens, and enough money for a one-way taxi to nearby wilderness.
Didn't take my phone to avoid calling emergency. Didn't take additional money. Went somewhere secluded so I couldn't reach help. I had ensured nobody could save me.
after getting there, I found a couple dogs and played with them. I asked them if I should I do it and they didn't seem to say no. I traveled a bit and found a rock to sit on.
I started swallowing the benadryl. did exactly two thirds in (around 2 grams). then my stomach got upset and I puked. diphenhydramine treats nausea yet it caused nausea. I was bummed.
last week was one of the happiest I had ever been, because there was a way out of the misery. now I don't know. I feel mentally cornered by the rating.
everyone else is happy, and I'm cursed to be miserable and alive. is there any other way to die? one that works and kills without causing a scheme