Help getting SN in the U.S

[itbelikethat]

Can anyone help me get SN in the states.

Im too scared use a gun, ive briefly thought about laying down on some train tracks but I dont trust myself to stand still, and id like my body to be intact. Would also suck to traumatize a train driver.

I fucked my life up pretty bad, no friends (other than someone I met on here), ive bought a house and lost my job, and its not looking like ill be able to get another one. Even before all this I've wanted to die. I cant get away from these suicidal thoughts. I cant afford therapy anymore either.

I was texting my ex for emotional support, but she rightfully decided to stop emotionally supporting me.

I cant make it out here, im too broken, I'm a mess of mental illness, and every waking moment my brain is in torment.

I could go live with my sister, but her house is overfilled as it is. And its disgusting, shes also not stable.

Im also in a fair amount of debt due to recent car troubles, and my own dumb impulsivity. If the bank ends up forclosing my house I could apply for bankruptcy and start again, but i dont think its worth it. I cant be stable.

I cant cope with who I am and the things I've done, thankfully im completely alone with no one depending on me, but thats a double edged sword for obvious reasons.

Please help me find a new source other than DMC. It doesn't seem to be available anymore.

I just want to pass away in my sleep. Peacefully.

Please pm me with instructions on how to get the right SN.

 

[aufrechtm7]

It's not allowed, sorry. There are means to find it with the search function if you must.

 

[chloeburbank]

Sorry for what you are going through. I hope you are able to find peace one day. If you have the search bar unlocked, search up "DSL" and read through the threads for clues! Sending hugs