Let me start by saying I am bouth drunk and dyslexic so don't expect to much grammar / spelling
I have been verry depressed since watching my mom being abused on the daily each new day new bruise a new mark a new scream all the police do is remove him from the situation in some case he would just leave a window open leaving me to deal with the situation later and honestly I heald my own ground if I had to change a thing it would be instead of standing by her it would be taking action grabbing that hammer and smashing a skull while he slept I have no room for people that abuse the week if that is police public or anyone and tbh I might not of ended it for him but I could of done enough damage I am a broken person in my past let's say 3 relationships I have told them that I want to jump of x spot and they have told me why don't u I knew at that point that the relationship was over I gave up on it that was a step to far especially when they knew my mental state and that I had had a cousin who had ctb with a past attempt I had done my second attempt hanging ( stupid shit never knew the curtain rail was just plated metal and bent eventually ending with me prying the noose off my head and vomiting blood to add insult to injury we had no working water at the time I had to bottled water to clean the blood managed to convince my mother that I just had a bug hmm second last time police interacted with me it was to stop me from jumping off of x spot got sent to see psychiatrist they told me there is noting they could do for me and discharged me no wounder my cousin died last time they interacted with me I therated to stab them if they where outside my door ( a freind called em to get into my building as I msged em saying if I do die want me to say the phone is urs in my note as it was his ) em so Yh I wanted to let my freind in but told the police if they tryed anything I would stab them I had 2 knifes in my hand and honestly I don't like the police for many reasons they are a pos imo too much power not enough action they do shit they let gaslighting and abuse happen but punish low level drug users (weed) what they do t relise is that they crate the low level drug users by letting this abuse happen and people grown up with it happing meh am stfu
I have been verry depressed since watching my mom being abused on the daily each new day new bruise a new mark a new scream all the police do is remove him from the situation in some case he would just leave a window open leaving me to deal with the situation later and honestly I heald my own ground if I had to change a thing it would be instead of standing by her it would be taking action grabbing that hammer and smashing a skull while he slept I have no room for people that abuse the week if that is police public or anyone and tbh I might not of ended it for him but I could of done enough damage I am a broken person in my past let's say 3 relationships I have told them that I want to jump of x spot and they have told me why don't u I knew at that point that the relationship was over I gave up on it that was a step to far especially when they knew my mental state and that I had had a cousin who had ctb with a past attempt I had done my second attempt hanging ( stupid shit never knew the curtain rail was just plated metal and bent eventually ending with me prying the noose off my head and vomiting blood to add insult to injury we had no working water at the time I had to bottled water to clean the blood managed to convince my mother that I just had a bug hmm second last time police interacted with me it was to stop me from jumping off of x spot got sent to see psychiatrist they told me there is noting they could do for me and discharged me no wounder my cousin died last time they interacted with me I therated to stab them if they where outside my door ( a freind called em to get into my building as I msged em saying if I do die want me to say the phone is urs in my note as it was his ) em so Yh I wanted to let my freind in but told the police if they tryed anything I would stab them I had 2 knifes in my hand and honestly I don't like the police for many reasons they are a pos imo too much power not enough action they do shit they let gaslighting and abuse happen but punish low level drug users (weed) what they do t relise is that they crate the low level drug users by letting this abuse happen and people grown up with it happing meh am stfu
