hello, and I hope not goodbye ;)

[brokenpersi]

Hello dear SaSU users,

Iv been lurking for some time, but then decided to make an account.
I have already chosen a method - SN. I live in Poland so its easily accessible (for now).
I have my SN sealed and stored - and now... gives life one last chance.
I will try to do my best. In work. In sport. In relations with other people.

Six months ago I lost the love of my life. I gave her the best and got the worst in return.
I got depressed, can't sleep for half a year, anhedonia, ptsd trauma.
There's more, but I don't think anyone wants to read it.

I turn 30 in August. I gave myself time until my birthday.
I sincerely hope that by then I will either forget about this forum or start a thread in the recovery section.
Otherwise SN is waiting in the closet.

SaSU one of the last places where I feel understood and no one judges me. Thank you for that

 

[betternever2havbeen]

Sorry to hear everything you've been going through. Unfortunately it takes quite a while to get over things for some people. Six months is not that long even though it seems like a long time, gradually things may start to improve. It's great you are giving things a go and not giving up without a fight. I hope by your birthday you are feeling much better and can post in the recovery section, that would be fantastic!

 

[Beer_is_all_I_have]

Hello dear SaSU users,

Iv been lurking for some time, but then decided to make an account.
I have already chosen a method - SN. I live in Poland so its easily accessible (for now).
I have my SN sealed and stored - and now... gives life one last chance.
I will try to do my best. In work. In sport. In relations with other people.

Six months ago I lost the love of my life. I gave her the best and got the worst in return.
I got depressed, can't sleep for half a year, anhedonia, ptsd trauma.
There's more, but I don't think anyone wants to read it.

I turn 30 in August. I gave myself time until my birthday.
I sincerely hope that by then I will either forget about this forum or start a thread in the recovery section.
Otherwise SN is waiting in the closet.

SaSU one of the last places where I feel understood and no one judges me. Thank you for that

I lost the love of my life 5 months ago. She took her life. My life seems pointless and I really don't do much now. I miss her laugh and hugs more than ever. However I push through the days and hope I'll at least make new friends. I've met a few including a wonderful someone from this site that I talk to infrequently.

I hope that's not the main reason you want to CTB. Dying over someone else when there is so much more out there. Especially if she treated you poorly. That's on her, shouldn't drag your self esteem down.

Also hope 30 isn't a big deal to you. It's nothing. Even 40 is nothing to lose sleep over these days.

I've suffered from severe depression and anhedonia most of my life. I fight through life but still find it worth it, knowing I'll have some good moments.

I'll miss my friend forever but I know she would want me to go on and make the best of my life. I hope you can too. Hugs

 

[theboy]

peace

 

[GasMonkey]

I lost the love of my life 5 months ago. She took her life.

What method did she use?
Was she a member of this forum?

 

[Beer_is_all_I_have]

What method did she use?
Was she a member of this forum?

She used N. Yes she was a member. She posted a brief goodbye thread. BTW she got the N just before D's deliveries started getting seized.

 

[FuneralCry]

I believe that you are fortunate just having the option of a reliable method if it comes to that point for you, at least you aren't trapped here in this cruel world. But anyway I wish you the best of luck.

 

[brokenpersi]

I believe that you are fortunate just having the option of a reliable method if it comes to that point for you, at least you aren't trapped here in this cruel world. But anyway I wish you the best of luck.

I have to tell you that just knowing that if I can't do it anymore, I have option to "logout" is very helpful. However, I will try not to let that happen. I know my problem may seem insignificant to some people, but it was just this thing that drained what was left of my strength and I just collapsed. It was one of the things that kept me on this side. Now it's gone

Thank you all for your understanding and kind words. It's strange how little it takes to feel at least a bit better. If only more people had this kind of empathy the world would be different and there would be a lot less of us on this forum - not because of CBD, but just living our happy lives

 

[hapiniuier]

I have already chosen a method - SN. I live in Poland so its easily accessible (for now).

I think that as of today there are more foreigners than locals who took their lives with SN bought here. Polish Wiki article doesn't even mention the possibility of acute/intentional poisoning, just the chronic/accidental from overeating foods containing it. I hope it stays low profile as a means to CTB, otherwise it won't take much for our lovely pro-life Judeo-Christian government to ban private persons from purchasing it.

 

[brokenpersi]

I think that as of today there are more foreigners than locals who took their lives with SN bought here. Polish Wiki article doesn't even mention the possibility of acute/intentional poisoning, just the chronic/accidental from overeating foods containing it. I hope it stays low profile as a means to CTB, otherwise it won't take much for our lovely pro-life Judeo-Christian government to ban private persons from purchasing it.

I'm afraid it's only a matter of time before it gets banned. Today you can buy literally for pennies 1kg / 4$. But I have a feeling that this can change literally overnight, so I preferred to stock up.