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lelouch22
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- Sep 23, 2022
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This is just a vent as I have no one to talk to. My boyfriend broke up with me, I'm hurt. He moved on so fast and he loves another girl now, it was so quick. I don't wanna be here anymore and the pain hurts me greatly, I want to ctb, but I'm concerned everyone else is going to think that I did it just to get his attention, or that I did it "over a boy" but in reality, this was just my last straw. I've hated my life for so long and this was just it. I did everything with him and he was my first love. I would've done anything for him. He lied to me about the reason of our break up when in reality he found someone else he loves better. I can't handle this pain I really can't I'm not strong enough for this. With him, I atleast saw a faction of how happy life could be, but now that he's gone, it feels like there's absolutely zero reason to keep going. I didn't wanna leave my life because of him, because I thought about how it would impact him. There's no reason to keep going, he is in love with her. He's willing to do everything for her already, why should I keep going. I feel like he never really loved me as he moved on so quick and he's in love already. I feel like no one could ever possibly truly love me. I'm unable to move on. I really feel like this is it for me. Everyone I tried to vent to sucks, they keep saying it's not "worth it to go just for a guys attention" but it's not that they don't even understand. The pain is unbearable I plan to go by sn