Heart broken over life?

[Heart Shards]

Does anyone feel like their heartbreak doesn't stem from love, but rather, life itself? Its disappointments; short comings; failures; pains? I think life has broken my heart to the point I don't want to feel anymore, I don't want to think, I don't want anything. That's why I stay doped up all the time; that's why I'm an addict, and I'm ashamed. They say severe heartbreak can kill you--I hope it does soon. I want to go to the place my faith tells me I will go. A place without heartbreak. Does anyone else feel this way?

 

[RedDEE]

Yes. We are all in a relationship with life. It's like a marriage - I feel as though I am married to life. I personally feel that life is an abusive spouse. Very disappointing. Very mediocre. Life is like a B rated movie - corny and not entertaining. Life is abusive - that is my personal experience.

 

[Painless_end]

Sorry for your pain

 

[Wisdom3_1-9]

I think life has broken my heart to the point I don't want to feel anymore, I don't want to think, I don't want anything.

This resonates so much with me. I'm not an addict, and in fact have never taken drugs (other than prescription), but I do wish for them at times. I would love not to feel this pain, or think these damaging thoughts. Death is the only way for me to experience that, I think.

 

[ladolcemorte]

Yes. 100 times yes. I gave up on romance long ago. But I am devastatingly, irreparably heartbroken at the overall state of my life. I don't see any way to fix it or even to make it tolerable.

 

[mathieu]

Yes, life has broken my heart too.

 

[builtwrong]

I couldn't agree more, the final straw for me was going into my industry professionally and realizing how corrupt and heartless it is. I'd never help anyone with the code I write, I'd never make any discoveries. I'd just sell shit people didn't need to people who didn't want it, I knew so much of the world was sick but coding is the one thing that makes me happy. It's the one world I had left to escape into, but seeing it twisted and knowing I have no place in the industry absolutely gutted me. This life doesn't have time or room for passion

 

[ERASED]

Yeah life is retarded......I really can't understand why we are alive. I just don't get the whole purpose of it. Death seems like the only goal for me......true peace and happiness.just endless sleep. That's true love.......endless sleep.