Discussion Having to stay alive as to not hurt your family.

[BehindTheWorld]

the only thing keeping me alive is my family. and not in the sense that they make me less suicidal, it's just that I don't want them to suffer.

i'm very grateful for them as i'm lucky that they've never done me wrong. it's just that there's no way to make them understand why i want to cbt.

life has treated them horribly. dad is a war veteran, mom's younger brother was killed in action at only 22, they had been homeless for years, dad's been working 2 jobs for the past 25 years, and recently my brother partially amputated three of his fingers at work.

meanwhile I'm definitely living great compared to them. i'm only 20 and a student on a scholarship. i've never had life repeatedly kick me with the things I can't control unlike them. so me killing myself would not just be hurtful but a complete insult to everything they've poured their life into.

i'm going to wait it out until they rest peacefully. even if i end my life just a couple years prematurely i'll gladly take it.

anyone else in a similar situation? what are your thoughts on the matter?

 

[TinyGuy]

I feel ya man I'm trying to train my brain to not feel those feelings because I do wanna ctb eventually but knowing the fact that my fam will know makes it really hard my gma is very old and she would probably get heart attack she dedicated like 10 years of her life to look after me so i am waiting for her to die peacefully but even if she does the other family members will still suffer.

 

[LostLily]

That the only reason why I'm staying because I don't want to pass the hurt

 

[midstarscream]

the only thing keeping me alive is my family. and not in the sense that they make me less suicidal, it's just that I don't want them to suffer.

i'm very grateful for them as i'm lucky that they've never done me wrong. it's just that there's no way to make them understand why i want to cbt.

life has treated them horribly. dad is a war veteran, mom's younger brother was killed in action at only 22, they had been homeless for years, dad's been working 2 jobs for the past 25 years, and recently my brother partially amputated three of his fingers at work.

meanwhile I'm definitely living great compared to them. i'm only 20 and a student on a scholarship. i've never had life repeatedly kick me with the things I can't control unlike them. so me killing myself would not just be hurtful but a complete insult to everything they've poured their life into.

i'm going to wait it out until they rest peacefully. even if i end my life just a couple years prematurely i'll gladly take it.

anyone else in a similar situation? what are your thoughts on the matter?

So true. My family is the only thing that's keeping me here, and it hurts to be trapped.