Having fantasies about being killed

[meles_inoris]

I have this fantasy that just popped into my head recently.

Two big, burly guys break into my house, tackle me to the floor where I stand, and one of them knees my neck to the ground while the other one pumps my head full of bullets until it turns into a brain smoothie.

I live in a very safe neighborhood and it's not likely to ever happen unless SHTF, but I really want it to happen.

 

[Living_Hurts_so_Much]

I have this fantasy that just popped into my head recently.

Two big, burly guys break into my house, tackle me to the floor where I stand, and one of them knees my neck to the ground while the other one pumps my head full of bullets until it turns into a brain smoothie.

I live in a very safe neighborhood and it's not likely to ever happen unless SHTF, but I really want it to happen.

My dream of being killed is by being shot in the head as well. I just want to be over. I think about different ways but being shot in the head seems such a quick way to go.

 

[rhiino]

I have those fantasies since years. In them I often die while defending somebody I love or doing something good (protecting animals from poachers etc.).

In addition I fantasize about getting a terminal illness and live my last days in happiness while knowing it will end soon.

 

[Worndown]

My dream of being killed is by being shot in the head as well. I just want to be over. I think about different ways but being shot in the head seems such a quick way to go.

It is the OFF switch.

 

[Help_Me]

I'm experiencing something like that pretty often, not being murdered, but the feeling of being dead. I had a serious quarrel few years ago and wanted to jump off the bridge (into the water). Since that time I often dream of being drowned there. Sometimes I think about it while taking a bath, I imagine these dark deep cold waters and how I end my life there and all my feelings and troubles are completely gone. It makes me calm every time I imagine my own suicide by drowning. As for the murders, sometimes I imagine being killed while doing something good, like protecting someone. I also had a dream where me and my friend where chased by some guys with guns and they finally reached us and shot one by one.

 

[LetzteAusfahrt]

I have had these fantasies for a long time. But I don't die quickly.

Spoiler

I am so anesthetized that I am awake, but my body does not feel any pain.
I have to watch my body being taken apart. How it is destroyed.

I hate my body

 

[SodaBaconWeed]

I have fantasies of my chrohns coming back and getting colon cancer. Or lung cancer because I smoke.

 

[Living_Hurts_so_Much]

I have had these fantasies for a long time. But I don't die quickly.

Spoiler

I am so anesthetized that I am awake, but my body does not feel any pain.
I have to watch my body being taken apart. How it is destroyed.

I hate my body

I hate my body. I have the desire for change but I have zero drive. Existing at a level where I no longer do it for myself. I hate my,no, THIS life

 

[Nymph]

I used to have these fantasies too, even dreams. Mostly happened when I was at school and I was daydreaming about my death. It was usually more fantasy and scifi tho. Some enemies would break thought the class door and I'd release my power and fight then to protect my friend and then I'd die because of injuries

 

[SuicidalSymphonies]

I've had fantasies about being murdered for many years.. Sometimes I just want someone to break into the house and get me or while I'm out walking or something.

I always felt like I was weird and creepy for thinking about those things. Kind of relieved to know other people have the same fantasies as me.

 

[TAW122]

I had similar fantasies, albeit not in the same way, but similarly. My fantasy is just being randomly gunned down as a victim of a mass shooter, dying so quickly that I don't even have time to register what happened before losing conscious and quickly bleeding to death (assuming the bullet has severed a major artery, e.g. femoral, carotid, brachial, jugular veins, etc.). I still highly prefer to die on my own terms, by my own hands though.

 

[I screwed up]

My fantasy is just being randomly gunned down as a victim of a mass shooter, dying so quickly that I don't even have time to register what happened before losing conscious and quickly bleeding to death (assuming the bullet has severed a major artery, e.g. femoral, carotid, brachial, jugular veins, etc.).

Exactly my feelings. Either a gun man or maybe a terrorist act like an bomb explosion.

 

[Living_Hurts_so_Much]

Exactly my feelings. Either a gun man or maybe a terrorist act like an bomb explosion.

And just like that. Peace at last from this unforgiving place.