David Foster Wallace said he stays out of politics because it is too upsetting. Lol. I am quite the opposite. My dad also gave me the advice to stop caring so much about politics. He pretended I had no benefit from it. It is just my favorite hobby and a very good distraction for my mental problems. Moreover I don't want to get as cynical about it as him.
I had the idea for this thread when I accidentally read something about assisted suciide today. The whole process of assisted suicide regulation is so extremely frustrating for me. I have made several threads about the absolutely amazing ruling of the German highest court. But the vast majority of politicians want to ignore the judgement. Some conservatives said we should just ignore the ruling fully. I have listened to several journalists who shared that opinion. They are so cynical about suicidal people with so many stupid and wrong stereotypes. Currently it looks like there will be a new assisted suicide law but way more stricltly regulated as in the judgement.
This all makes me so sad, mad, frustrated, cynical, desperate etc. I just could throw up due to it I had so much hope when I heard about the judgement. There are some obstacles. I am mentally ill. Some politicians stated they want to make it impossible for mentally ill to apply for it. (which is against the nature of the ruling)
Assisted suicide costs a lot of money currently. Really a lot of money according to my information. My dad threatened me to stop giving me money when I tried to apply for assisted suicide. I am pretty sure my mom would also never support my decision.
So yeah I probably have to wait for it till my parents are dead. They would stop supporting me when I applied for it and then I had to live on the streets and had no money for it anyway. But even when my parents are dead one of my main reasons for suicide is poverty. I will never have this much money for assisted suicde. I hope so much they make it for free. And also open for mentally ill people.
However the more I read of it the more cynical and depressed I become. I have stopped reading about it because it makes me so desperate and depressive. I need a way out when life turns unbearable.
Other behaviors which I quitted: I stopped to talk with some people about my mental health problems and suicidality. My dad is an ignorant jerk who has horrible stances on suicide. I am glad I have my friends, therapist and SS in order to talk about that topic.
Some other examples: There was one DFW 1 hour video which I watched like 50 times maybe more. I started to imitating it. The result was damage to my sanity. But I partly recovered from that. I had to stop watching it. Lol. What an insane time.
Another thing: Not taking my medication. There was a time I denied all of my medication for like 1,5 years. Yeah it really helped to take them. The time without them was extremely insane.
I had the idea for this thread when I accidentally read something about assisted suciide today. The whole process of assisted suicide regulation is so extremely frustrating for me. I have made several threads about the absolutely amazing ruling of the German highest court. But the vast majority of politicians want to ignore the judgement. Some conservatives said we should just ignore the ruling fully. I have listened to several journalists who shared that opinion. They are so cynical about suicidal people with so many stupid and wrong stereotypes. Currently it looks like there will be a new assisted suicide law but way more stricltly regulated as in the judgement.
This all makes me so sad, mad, frustrated, cynical, desperate etc. I just could throw up due to it I had so much hope when I heard about the judgement. There are some obstacles. I am mentally ill. Some politicians stated they want to make it impossible for mentally ill to apply for it. (which is against the nature of the ruling)
Assisted suicide costs a lot of money currently. Really a lot of money according to my information. My dad threatened me to stop giving me money when I tried to apply for assisted suicide. I am pretty sure my mom would also never support my decision.
So yeah I probably have to wait for it till my parents are dead. They would stop supporting me when I applied for it and then I had to live on the streets and had no money for it anyway. But even when my parents are dead one of my main reasons for suicide is poverty. I will never have this much money for assisted suicde. I hope so much they make it for free. And also open for mentally ill people.
However the more I read of it the more cynical and depressed I become. I have stopped reading about it because it makes me so desperate and depressive. I need a way out when life turns unbearable.
Other behaviors which I quitted: I stopped to talk with some people about my mental health problems and suicidality. My dad is an ignorant jerk who has horrible stances on suicide. I am glad I have my friends, therapist and SS in order to talk about that topic.
Some other examples: There was one DFW 1 hour video which I watched like 50 times maybe more. I started to imitating it. The result was damage to my sanity. But I partly recovered from that. I had to stop watching it. Lol. What an insane time.
Another thing: Not taking my medication. There was a time I denied all of my medication for like 1,5 years. Yeah it really helped to take them. The time without them was extremely insane.
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