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- Aug 5, 2018
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Yes, in April when he met someone else. I gave up so much for him. .Now he hates me and probably wants me dead. Now I have nothing. It's my motivation to end my life.
Soul
gate gate paragate parasamgate bodhi svaha
- Apr 12, 2019
- 4,705
Yes. He actually got married to the younger woman he dumped me for. The problem is that even with a broken heart I never stopped loving him, because love is love and not fade away.
About nine years (and one divorce) later he came back. We're together now. I forgave him and he does his best for me, and love is real and not fade away.
About nine years (and one divorce) later he came back. We're together now. I forgave him and he does his best for me, and love is real and not fade away.
blanketyblk
Mage
- Jun 9, 2019
- 574
yes, she took her own life 8 years ago. never been whole since. still miss her ever day and i dream about the life that we could of been living
yes, it was 20 years ago but it still hurts, the only person I could really connect with. she died in a car accident, and me too in a way
Yes. 20 years ago. The explicitly-voiced reason shattered my sense of identity. I never recovered.
Icarus
Member
- Jul 25, 2019
- 76
Yes. I messed up twice with that person because of my immaturity and feeling of self-importance.
Roger
I Liked Ike
- May 11, 2019
- 973
reveriewong
Member
- Feb 22, 2019
- 61
I'm sorry for everyone's loss. May your loved ones continue to live on in you, and may you continue to move forward with a resilient spirit.
No, I've never been able to experience love in any sort of friendship/relationship. My brain just isn't wired right. I'm able to care about family and that's it.
Halo13
Wizard
- May 9, 2019
- 671
I love this story, thanks for sharing.
I read your story about this when you first joined here. I'm sorry for your loss.
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Taki
Specialist
- Jul 30, 2019
- 319
blanketyblk
Mage
- Jun 9, 2019
- 574
Thanks, amazing how i just have never gotten over her. always fresh in my mind, first thing in the morning, last thing at night. even after 8 years. nearly 9 now. and i get so jealous when i see another gay couple just holding hands and having a life.. ahh. well life was never sold to me that everyone gets to have a happy ending.I read your story about this when you first joined here. I'm sorry for your loss.
Halo13
Wizard
- May 9, 2019
- 671
If it's any consolation, I think that shows how truly and deeply you love her. Many people go their whole lives never having a love that strong and resilient. Hell, I'm jealous of that, nevermind other couples
blanketyblk
Mage
- Jun 9, 2019
- 574
ooh i do know that. i have been very fortunate for that. growing up i never though i would find love, or find someone who would love me back. (ugly girl). so our connection was always very special to me and still is. even thought it ended with me having a broken heart. i would never trade our time for happier memories.If it's any consolation, I think that shows how truly and deeply you love her. Many people go their whole lives never having a love that strong and resilient. Hell, I'm jealous of that, nevermind other couples
Halo13
Wizard
- May 9, 2019
- 671
That's exactly what I meant. Even though I'm a member here planning to ctb, I try to bear in mind the collective balance when I experienced things others have not, lived a pretty interesting life up until everything took a permanent turn for the worse. I'm completely alone now - no living family, no friends left or partner - yet I know when the time comes, there was some great things mixed in with the hellish events. I think there's closure in knowing that, despite the days I'm losing my mind (which are most days). The bad outweighs the good but still...it's something.
blanketyblk
Mage
- Jun 9, 2019
- 574
Yes. yes.. while the bad outweighs the good.. there was at least some 'some' good years in my life. and well at this stage in life. i will take what ever good bits i can get
yes, she took her life 3 years ago. I was so buried into my own darkness that I didn't even see that coming, I still wonder today what I would have done if I did
it's one thing to talk about suicide, but another to actually see it
it's one thing to talk about suicide, but another to actually see it
suffering
Too p*ssy to end it, too suicidal to leave
- Aug 17, 2018
- 398
Fadinglife
Student
- Apr 16, 2019
- 109
Mr2005
Don't shoot the messenger, give me the gun
- Sep 25, 2018
- 3,622
7 years ago, the only human I have ever loved died from MND (ALS).
Had he not have died, I probably would have grown to hate him by now
Had he not have died, I probably would have grown to hate him by now
