Discussion Have you forgiven yourself?

[Leonard_Bangley39]

I've spoken about my issues with my friends and my therapist and one thing i hear often is how you need to forgive yourself for the things you do, but i don't think I've ever been able to do that. Everytime i do something bad, whether it's lashing out at a friend, or messing something up and making a mess, or accidentally hurting someone, i never forgive myself.

It always stays with me in my head. Either in the front or in the back of my mind, it just lingers there and i always blame myself for it and believe that i am a bad, shitty person. Because i am.

I don't want to forgive myself, i don't believe that i deserve to be forgiven because i am not a good person.

 

[SummerTrip]

No. Never

 

[Leonard_Bangley39]

bump.

 

[OnMyLast Legs]

No. I have said, done, and failed to do so much. I am a ridiculously bad person. In fact, that's the source of my suicidality: horror before myself. I've had it for such a long time, and I've added many reasons since it first showed up. But my fear of the act is as high as ever.