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Dagon
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- May 25, 2019
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I bought my N back in 2019. I've read conflicting information on the shelf life of N, but the general consensus seems to be roughly 2 years after purchase. Some say that it can last longer if stored properly, but I accidentally threw my bottle of N in the washing machine once so that probably fucked up its chances of lasting more than 2 years. I doubt I'll ever get my hands on another bottle of N seeing as I've already had the pleasure of meeting homeland security. Keeping all of this in mind, the date that I've chosen for myself is most likely my only chance at ctb. However, as I approach closer to my deadline, I've been becoming increasingly uncertain about whether I'm ready or not. I know this is not a decision that I should make lightly and that I should only commit if I'm 100% ready, but it feels like a now or never situation.
Can anyone else relate? I'm conflicted and lost. I've been planning this for over a year now and I'm as prepared as ever, but I'm scared. I'm scared for my friends and family, especially my grandparents. I'm scared about what happens after death. But I think above all, I'm scared that I'll miss my only chance at ctb and that I'll be plagued with regret if I don't take the plunge now. I don't know what to do. I don't think I'm ready, but the thought of being alive for even another year terrifies me. If anyone has any advice, I'm all ears.
Can anyone else relate? I'm conflicted and lost. I've been planning this for over a year now and I'm as prepared as ever, but I'm scared. I'm scared for my friends and family, especially my grandparents. I'm scared about what happens after death. But I think above all, I'm scared that I'll miss my only chance at ctb and that I'll be plagued with regret if I don't take the plunge now. I don't know what to do. I don't think I'm ready, but the thought of being alive for even another year terrifies me. If anyone has any advice, I'm all ears.