Discussion Have you ever felt connected to something in a weird way?

[goddaydog]

honestly. Been getting this weird feeling ever since I was younger. Oddly connected to nature in a way i feel comforted by it but also scared. Every time i look at the forests and the mountains i feel something, a urge to runaway there and just lie down and die there, like, stay completely connected to that place like I belong there. And just let nature take me. Dying in a place that you feel connected to must be so comforting and I hope that that's the way I'll die. Have this ever happened to someone else? Lmk

 

[unplug]

I can relate to this. It's the only place where I feel less anxious. It'd be ideal for me to end things there.

 

[Thefuture]

yes. since a very early age i have had a longing for nature. it's the only time i feel at peace besides when i'm about to fall asleep. I used to "run away" as a kid and that urge to runaway has never left me. i want to run away to the wilderness and live in nature and peace. i used to daydream about being stranded on islands having to survive. i even thought about making videos of that nature years ago when i wasn't so sick. now there's so many on youtube. I wish I had just enough money to buy a place out in the middle of nowhere. but i can't work so it'll never be an option. i can't even be around people anymore. i live like a recluse but i live in a very populated area. so it's kinda hell being around so much noise but being isolated. i have too much anxiety to even leave my house. i've been watching videos of people climbing everest and k2. I felt so engaged and peaceful watching those videos. Wishing I could climb them and be in nature.

 

[whatevs]

No, but that reminds me of this.

 

[goddaydog]

No, but that reminds me of this.

Holy shit I never knew this and I've been listening to mayhem it's been a while, I didn't know he left a suicide note and it's shocking that I relate to his words so much. Thanks for letting me know

yes. since a very early age i have had a longing for nature. it's the only time i feel at peace besides when i'm about to fall asleep. I used to "run away" as a kid and that urge to runaway has never left me. i want to run away to the wilderness and live in nature and peace. i used to daydream about being stranded on islands having to survive. i even thought about making videos of that nature years ago when i wasn't so sick. now there's so many on youtube. I wish I had just enough money to buy a place out in the middle of nowhere. but i can't work so it'll never be an option. i can't even be around people anymore. i live like a recluse but i live in a very populated area. so it's kinda hell being around so much noise but being isolated. i have too much anxiety to even leave my house. i've been watching videos of people climbing everest and k2. I felt so engaged and peaceful watching those videos. Wishing I could climb them and be in nature.

Exactly, it's such a comforting feeling, feeling like you'll finally be at peace. I think the movie "Midsommar" comforts me a lot because of the place it's set in. All the nature and tbh the culture of the harga of the movie, it sounds like the ideal place.
Or just live in the middle of the forest and let whatever nature force take me. Maybe die on a lake full of rocks and let my body decompose so I become one with it.

 

[unnormal9]

Yes, I've felt connected to my writing. It is strange because I only write as a remedy for my chronic mental pain.

 

[sancsuinet]

yeah, mainly water but nature in general as well. since i was a kid no one could ever get me out of the water, i would swim and swim and swim till my lips were blue from the cold and my fingers pruned till it was painful, hours and hours. whenever i was sad i dreamt of sinking into it, the feeling of being completely enveloped and floating endlessly was so comforting. ive always hated shoes, i want to feel my feet on the ground, the dirt between my toes. i want that connection to nature, to see all the silly creatures and how the moss grows intertwined with the trees and its all apart of something bigger.

depression and self esteem issues ruined my connection, i dont go out and i hate swimming, i still want to have that, but i feel so seperate from it now.

yes. since a very early age i have had a longing for nature. it's the only time i feel at peace besides when i'm about to fall asleep. I used to "run away" as a kid and that urge to runaway has never left me. i want to run away to the wilderness and live in nature and peace. i used to daydream about being stranded on islands having to survive. i even thought about making videos of that nature years ago when i wasn't so sick. now there's so many on youtube. I wish I had just enough money to buy a place out in the middle of nowhere. but i can't work so it'll never be an option. i can't even be around people anymore. i live like a recluse but i live in a very populated area. so it's kinda hell being around so much noise but being isolated. i have too much anxiety to even leave my house. i've been watching videos of people climbing everest and k2. I felt so engaged and peaceful watching those videos. Wishing I could climb them and be in nature.

omg i used to dream of running away and living in a house i built with my own two hands and no power tools, i wanted to forge my own living and just live amongst it all. my favourite thing to do was to build tiny houses for the bugs and pretend i was a pirate stuck out on an island with only a machete and coconut trees.

 

[goddaydog]

yeah, mainly water but nature in general as well. since i was a kid no one could ever get me out of the water, i would swim and swim and swim till my lips were blue from the cold and my fingers pruned till it was painful, hours and hours. whenever i was sad i dreamt of sinking into it, the feeling of being completely enveloped and floating endlessly was so comforting. ive always hated shoes, i want to feel my feet on the ground, the dirt between my toes. i want that connection to nature, to see all the silly creatures and how the moss grows intertwined with the trees and its all apart of something bigger.

depression and self esteem issues ruined my connection, i dont go out and i hate swimming, i still want to have that, but i feel so seperate from it now.

I feel that and it's really bad. I used to be so connected to nature by touching things and stuff but now I just feel sort of awkward touching grass and dirt. I have problems with texture and it grew as I grew but I'm sure one day that won't stop me from doing what I would like to

 

[sancsuinet]

I feel that and it's really bad. I used to be so connected to nature by touching things and stuff but now I just feel sort of awkward touching grass and dirt. I have problems with texture and it grew as I grew but I'm sure one day that won't stop me from doing what I would like to

its good youre not letting it stand in your way!
I definitely have let my issues stop doing things that make me happiest. I had a lot of issues with body image that stopped me from swimming and now im not confident in the water or my body so what used to be my default feels so unnatural to me. most of the times ive been insulted or shamed for my body have been while swimming or exercising so it isnt surprising i hide away now but it is upsetting.
i feel you on the textural issues!!! i have major sensory things with textures, and i definitely think im worse with it now. i used to just roam around and touch whatever when i was younger, i was a bit feral and lived rural, and only had issues with food textures but ive gotten worse! i hate the texture of most things on my hands and i dont like transitioning from dry to wet or slimy textures so nature is very uncomfortable even though it is my most comfortable place if that makes sense.

 

[goddaydog]

its good youre not letting it stand in your way!
I definitely have let my issues stop doing things that make me happiest. I had a lot of issues with body image that stopped me from swimming and now im not confident in the water or my body so what used to be my default feels so unnatural to me. most of the times ive been insulted or shamed for my body have been while swimming or exercising so it isnt surprising i hide away now but it is upsetting.
i feel you on the textural issues!!! i have major sensory things with textures, and i definitely think im worse with it now. i used to just roam around and touch whatever when i was younger, i was a bit feral and lived rural, and only had issues with food textures but ive gotten worse! i hate the texture of most things on my hands and i dont like transitioning from dry to wet or slimy textures so nature is very uncomfortable even though it is my most comfortable place if that makes sense.

i understand that. I also hate my body so it is hard to do things that you have to show it off. But I do hope one day you can go back to do what comforts you mate! Sometimes you just gotta say fuck it to everything and go for it

 

[sancsuinet]

i understand that. I also hate my body so it is hard to do things that you have to show it off. But I do hope one day you can go back to do what comforts you mate! Sometimes you just gotta say fuck it to everything and go for it

thanks! i hope the same for you!

 

[Thefuture]

Holy shit I never knew this and I've been listening to mayhem it's been a while, I didn't know he left a suicide note and it's shocking that I relate to his words so much. Thanks for letting me know

Exactly, it's such a comforting feeling, feeling like you'll finally be at peace. I think the movie "Midsommar" comforts me a lot because of the place it's set in. All the nature and tbh the culture of the harga of the movie, it sounds like the ideal place.
Or just live in the middle of the forest and let whatever nature force take me. Maybe die on a lake full of rocks and let my body decompose so I become one with it.

Yes I love that movie for that reason too. I also like the idea of cults in some way. I feel like it would be cool to live in a cult that wasn't really a cult in the bad sense.

 

[endofafoxtwo]

honestly. Been getting this weird feeling ever since I was younger. Oddly connected to nature in a way i feel comforted by it but also scared. Every time i look at the forests and the mountains i feel something, a urge to runaway there and just lie down and die there, like, stay completely connected to that place like I belong there. And just let nature take me. Dying in a place that you feel connected to must be so comforting and I hope that that's the way I'll die. Have this ever happened to someone else? Lmk

Dude, yeah. Sorry to kinda necro but I really can relate to this. My whole life all I've wanted was to leave the human world for the wilds.

 

[SoftWorries]

honestly. Been getting this weird feeling ever since I was younger. Oddly connected to nature in a way i feel comforted by it but also scared. Every time i look at the forests and the mountains i feel something, a urge to runaway there and just lie down and die there, like, stay completely connected to that place like I belong there. And just let nature take me. Dying in a place that you feel connected to must be so comforting and I hope that that's the way I'll die. Have this ever happened to someone else? Lmk

Have you read the book The Vegetarian? It's a strange story about a woman who wants to become part of nature while her family's lives fall apart from trying to stop her.

It's a strange and unique story. I'd recommend it

 

[jonghyun]

the moon...

 

[EmpathyMinded]

While I don't currently want to CTB, but if I ever did I would want to do it in the White Sands Desert in New Mexico. Probably as it shifted from day to sunset, see the white sands shift to being painted with the colors of that sunset, all the warm oranges and pinks and purples. If you've never looked it up, you should. And if you ever get the chance to visit, do.

 

[goddaydog]

Have you read the book The Vegetarian? It's a strange story about a woman who wants to become part of nature while her family's lives fall apart from trying to stop her.

It's a strange and unique story. I'd recommend it

I will check, sounds interesting

 

[tiny_dancer]

While I don't currently want to CTB, but if I ever did I would want to do it in the White Sands Desert in New Mexico. Probably as it shifted from day to sunset, see the white sands shift to being painted with the colors of that sunset, all the warm oranges and pinks and purples. If you've never looked it up, you should. And if you ever get the chance to visit, do.

That sounds amazing. My thing is the desert too. Joshua tree, specifically. Something about the vibe, the colours, the stars at night…

 

[Coffeandamug]

Well, I hope it causese no harm to post on old posts. I had never asked myself that question. The weird answer is that come to me is that I feel connected to everything. I find every detail of reality very interesting and beautiful. That is not to say that I don't hate some aspects of existence like all the suffering we have to go through. I know it is contradictory... it's hard to explain. Maybe the way someone feels connected to nature but still wishes that all the suffering which living beings living in it experience could go away. This feeling of loving everything also makes me suffer a lot because I always want to experience everything and I can't as I am bound to my human mortal limitations.

 

[AInilam]

Whenever we'd drive to the lake, I always had intrusive thoughts of walking into the water and drowning myself as a kid or running away into the woods, would even draw pictures of it. I did feel connected with nature once upon a time and had a lot of unexplainable things happen to me related to it. When me and my childhood friends would go venturing out and exploring it was magical, I felt carefree and safe. Thinking back to it now, I probably just wanted to get away from home.

I know it's childish to still have these same impulsions as an adult and I don't anymore, but a little part of me does wish I could just fuck off entirely and make it out there on my own, but I know I'd fail miserably and miss all the conveniences of technology and modern-life. Guess ctb is the next best thing.

 

[Ksmиda]

Yes, I never really cared or felt anything about nature before i was depressed. But then I noticed how peaceful I feel in nature - it feels like I'm in heaven. Now my idea of a perfect afterlife involves just relaxing in nature and stuff like that.
I also feel something similar when it comes to space. Like with nature, I feel like I'm a part of it and I want to be there forever.