Venting Have no choice.

[FreedomInDeath]

I do not want to die but I have no choice. I have severe OCD and people getting well from this is slim to none. Also I have been through so much torment I have no idea how I would continue with a life that is worth living. That is it . I am just so sad. I didn't do anything to deserve such a horrible mental illness. This is why I do not believe in god. Why would a god put me through this? And then I realized why would a god put anyone through the torture they have to go through? Hell is living on this planet.

 

[Huntfish34]

I am really sorry to hear this , for a long time I didn't think I had a choice either .... Thoughts and prayers to you always, Love ya.

 

[Brink]

I do not want to die but I have no choice. I have severe OCD and people getting well from this is slim to none. Also I have been through so much torment I have no idea how I would continue with a life that is worth living. That is it . I am just so sad. I didn't do anything to deserve such a horrible mental illness. This is why I do not believe in god. Why would a god put me through this? And then I realized why would a god put anyone through the torture they have to go through? Hell is living on this planet.

Thanks for sharing this and I wish life dealt you a better hand. I agree that hell is often on earth for many of us. OCD is treatable though - have you sought any help? I know people that have treated their symptoms and managed to become 'high-functioning'. Best wishes for any choice you make. x

 

[Mr2005]

I do not want to die but I have no choice. I have severe OCD and people getting well from this is slim to none. Also I have been through so much torment I have no idea how I would continue with a life that is worth living. That is it . I am just so sad. I didn't do anything to deserve such a horrible mental illness. This is why I do not believe in god. Why would a god put me through this? And then I realized why would a god put anyone through the torture they have to go through? Hell is living on this planet.

Yet you want to stay on it as do I and that's what makes it harder. I can't focus on all the bad, I need to focus on the good. If it can't save me I at least want to make my peace. I wish the same for you and I'm sorry

 

[MoreThanAFeeling]

Hell is living on this planet.

Couldn't agree more

 

[FreedomInDeath]

Treatment for OCD isn't covered by my insurance and it is so expensive. Thank you for all of your kindness everyone it really means a lot to me.

 

[Deleted member 1465]

I'm sorry. I have OCD too. It's always made everything very difficult. People just don't get it. The awful feelings of encroaching doom if things aren't just right. How are you meant to live with that? I tried, but the only thing that worked was Prozac and that bombed out after nine months or so.