Hating living but being afraid of suicide

[danzk]

I hate living but I still don't have enough courage to kill myself, is there anything I could do?

 

[Andrew10]

I'm in a similar situation, it's not fear, but I question ending it all, what I do is simply wait to receive enough damage for CTB, I'm convinced that at some point I'll take too much damage that I won't care about the fear and I will finish it all, I know that sooner or later I will finish and I will catch my bus

 

[danzk]

I'm in a similar situation, it's not fear, but I question ending it all, what I do is simply wait to receive enough damage for CTB, I'm convinced that at some point I'll take too much damage that I won't care about the fear and I will finish it all, I know that sooner or later I will finish and I will catch my bus

I think the same as you, I feel that at some point in my life I will end up killing myself

 

[LaVieEnRose]

Just try to work on improving your life or at least maintain a steady normal course until the day the fear isn't enough.

 

[JordanF]

I'm in a similar situation, it's not fear, but I question ending it all, what I do is simply wait to receive enough damage for CTB, I'm convinced that at some point I'll take too much damage that I won't care about the fear and I will finish it all, I know that sooner or later I will finish and I will catch my bus

That's honestly what I think too. Starting from when I was 10, I always felt like my end would be suicide, but I kind of wanted to live a little before then. It's only a matter of time before I decide to CBT.

 

[Onomatopoeia]

Fear of the unknown. I look at it like this. The universe is said to be 14 billion years old. Earth is said to be 4.5 billion years old (as if humans have any capability whatsoever of knowing either of those things for a fact). I don't remember anything 14 billion year prior to being born, or 4.5 billion years prior to being born. So unless some Matrix controller wipes our hard drives (brains) at death and places us somewhere else in another life and another world, then I assume I won't know anything about the next 4.5 billion years or 14 billion years after I die.

 

[Sivit]

Suicidal people don't want to die.
That's normal, it's the moment when living itself is far too painful than dying where death is the only option.

 

[sserafim]

Maybe you could have a change of scene or do something new? Like go traveling and become revitalized with life

 

[danzk]

Pessoas suicidas não querem morrer.
Isso é normal, é o momento em que viver é muito doloroso fazer que morrer onde a morte é a única opção.

Talvez você pudesse mudar de cenário ou fazer algo novo? Como viajar e se revitalizar com a vida

Maybe you could have a change of scene or do something new? Like go traveling and become revitalized with life

I tried to do these things but nothing changed

 

[BlockHammer]

I sorry for what you have gone through, i dont have any good advice cause ironicly im in the same condition as you do. All im doing now is trying my best as i can to solve this problem i had, if one day im ctb myself at least i know that i tried hard enough and won't let anyone dictate about how im not working hard enough etc (oo yea and also sometimes gather with friend, go to some weeb event)

 

[FuneralCry]

I certainly understand that it's so dreadful feeling trapped in this existence you hate, I personally really wish there's the option to just fall asleep eternally. But anyway best wishes in whatever happens.

 

[Ambivalent1]

Suicidal people don't want to die.
That's normal, it's the moment when living itself is far too painful than dying where death is the only option.

I didn't know that