So I joined a dating site for gay Christians... specifically for those of us looking for friendship and/or relationships... NOT a hookup site. I joined rather quickly and I did not have a photo of myself as I wanted to have a professional photo made. Most that contacted me asked for a photo, but when I explained, they were understanding and either just went on their way or blocked me. That's ok. I contacted one person yesterday, and just introduced myself. They replied today with this: "Either post a picture on your profile or send me one. I don't talk to ghosts." Seriously?! So, we're just going to start out as friends and does it really matter how I look? They could have asked me more politely, and I would have sent what I had.
Unfortunately, this type of behaviour is all too common within the gay community, we seem to be so discriminating against one another when a person doesn't fit into a certain category, or look a certain way. It's not just on dating and hookup apps, it's going on in the bars and clubs, and even social gatherings like Meetup groups. People from out of town have noticed this too posting online about it. Before the gay community can expect acceptance from the rest of the world, we need to fix the issues within. This is not to say that the problems will completely disappear, they won't because this is just human nature, but it doesn't have to be as bad as it is currently. This is another reason why I want to ctb. I'm so tired of this. I just want someone to love me, and I want to love them. I'm sure many of you feel the same way, or can at least understand where I'm coming from. I don't even have the love of my parents. I am completely alone. I am not going to be around for much longer, and that's my choosing, because I can't stand the pain. I hang on not because I think there's hope for me, but because I'm responsible and I have unfinished business. Even though my family couldn't care two flips about me, I'm not going to leave them with my funeral expenses and have them curse me after I'm gone. While I go on living for the remainder of time I have here, I have got to find some way to try and be happier as a single person. Not sure how that's going to work.
Anyway, if I could flip a switch and become asexual, I would do that in a heartbeat. Unfortunately, my body won't comply.
Well, if you've made it this far, thanks for reading. All opinions are my own and I hope I haven't offended anyone.
Unfortunately, this type of behaviour is all too common within the gay community, we seem to be so discriminating against one another when a person doesn't fit into a certain category, or look a certain way. It's not just on dating and hookup apps, it's going on in the bars and clubs, and even social gatherings like Meetup groups. People from out of town have noticed this too posting online about it. Before the gay community can expect acceptance from the rest of the world, we need to fix the issues within. This is not to say that the problems will completely disappear, they won't because this is just human nature, but it doesn't have to be as bad as it is currently. This is another reason why I want to ctb. I'm so tired of this. I just want someone to love me, and I want to love them. I'm sure many of you feel the same way, or can at least understand where I'm coming from. I don't even have the love of my parents. I am completely alone. I am not going to be around for much longer, and that's my choosing, because I can't stand the pain. I hang on not because I think there's hope for me, but because I'm responsible and I have unfinished business. Even though my family couldn't care two flips about me, I'm not going to leave them with my funeral expenses and have them curse me after I'm gone. While I go on living for the remainder of time I have here, I have got to find some way to try and be happier as a single person. Not sure how that's going to work.
Anyway, if I could flip a switch and become asexual, I would do that in a heartbeat. Unfortunately, my body won't comply.
Well, if you've made it this far, thanks for reading. All opinions are my own and I hope I haven't offended anyone.
