
almaranthine
Wizard
- Nov 28, 2019
- 615
For months I was unemployed and this made me very suicidal (well, more than is normal for me I suppose). I finally got a job... simple part-time retail cashier position at a supposedly "good" company. I am terrible at this job. Truly floored by how bad I was at this task. I knew it would be monotonous and stressful because of the customers but I genuinely didn't think I would perform so badly. Here's a brief list of things I royally fucked up during my literal training the first few shifts.
- I somehow managed to make a mysterious $140 charge appear on a woman's transaction (it said "coupon book" and no one, including the supervisor had any idea what it was or how I managed to add it to the sale) and didn't even notice the price jump.
-I somehow miscounted $120 as $140 and even though the sale was literally under $120 I didn't process this. The customer was an old man there with his wife, was confused, then doubted himself thinking he really gave me an extra $20, took it, left his phone number just in case, and then had to come back to the store a few minutes later after they audited my drawer and confirmed how terribly I fucked up.
- I thought a nectarine was a peach and was loudly called out by the customer for ringing it up incorrectly. This one really fucked with me as I *was* sure I knew the difference between these two fucking fruits, but apparently not.
- A manager came up to buy his lunch, and had a fountain drink in his hand... by looking at it I had no idea what size the cup was (by fluid ounces) and didn't want to ask him, stared blankly at the screen for a few seconds until the girl training me kindly selected the right one.
- Realized I have no conceptualization of volume at all... after having multiple people in my line with various sizes of water containers, bags of pet food, ice etc and having no fucking clue what to actually charge them for without specifically asking, being overwhelmed by all the options on the lookup screen.
It was bad. I've never felt so stupid in my entire life. I can't believe that at my age I can't handle a job that is considered so simple but I was so mentally exhausted and convinced that I was constantly screwing something up or annoying the customers by asking questions or potentially overcharging them for things and I felt terrible.
I was scheduled today... for my first shift "alone" and I literally did not go. I didn't call out and make up an excuse, nothing. I burned my bridge with an entire company, and wasted all these people's time and the stores training hours. I turned off my phone for a few hours. Upon turning it back on, I didn't see any voicemails. I don't blame them for not even calling.
I'm worse off mentally now than I was before being unemployed. I'm so tired. I genuinely want to give up.
- I somehow managed to make a mysterious $140 charge appear on a woman's transaction (it said "coupon book" and no one, including the supervisor had any idea what it was or how I managed to add it to the sale) and didn't even notice the price jump.
-I somehow miscounted $120 as $140 and even though the sale was literally under $120 I didn't process this. The customer was an old man there with his wife, was confused, then doubted himself thinking he really gave me an extra $20, took it, left his phone number just in case, and then had to come back to the store a few minutes later after they audited my drawer and confirmed how terribly I fucked up.
- I thought a nectarine was a peach and was loudly called out by the customer for ringing it up incorrectly. This one really fucked with me as I *was* sure I knew the difference between these two fucking fruits, but apparently not.
- A manager came up to buy his lunch, and had a fountain drink in his hand... by looking at it I had no idea what size the cup was (by fluid ounces) and didn't want to ask him, stared blankly at the screen for a few seconds until the girl training me kindly selected the right one.
- Realized I have no conceptualization of volume at all... after having multiple people in my line with various sizes of water containers, bags of pet food, ice etc and having no fucking clue what to actually charge them for without specifically asking, being overwhelmed by all the options on the lookup screen.
It was bad. I've never felt so stupid in my entire life. I can't believe that at my age I can't handle a job that is considered so simple but I was so mentally exhausted and convinced that I was constantly screwing something up or annoying the customers by asking questions or potentially overcharging them for things and I felt terrible.
I was scheduled today... for my first shift "alone" and I literally did not go. I didn't call out and make up an excuse, nothing. I burned my bridge with an entire company, and wasted all these people's time and the stores training hours. I turned off my phone for a few hours. Upon turning it back on, I didn't see any voicemails. I don't blame them for not even calling.
I'm worse off mentally now than I was before being unemployed. I'm so tired. I genuinely want to give up.