Discussion Has there been a time in your life when you felt happy?

[livinginhellnation]

As the title suggests.. I mean a period of your life when you felt really happy and living life to the full, never wanting it to end.

For me late forties, twice in my life, once in my mid twenties for 2-3 years and the other time in my mid thirties for 2 years.

 

[Golden]

I'd say I haven't been happy in this definition probably since I was 10. But it has still been bearable for most of my life since then

edit: ...but for the past 4 year or so, not so bearable

 

[LaVieEnRose]

As in generally, with life? Nope. Not in accessible memory.

 

[Praestat_Mori]

For most of my life I was happy, with the regular ups and downs in life but since I failed a few years ago there's nothing to be happy about anymore

 

[Spiritual survivor]

When I was intertwined in sexual bliss with the tall handsome

 

[silence ends]

Yeah few times too, lasted many years. I think those periods of life involved some kind of feelings of hope and beliefs for better that made happiness possible. Was able to enjoy every tiny bits of life and everything felt fullfilling. Didnt lose grip of reality but maybe wanted to forget some facts.
Realism and reality came to captains boots fully after all and had to accept harsh realities of life, losing most of that nonsense-hope along with the journey.

 

[Smelly_ballz]

I don't know. I think so but those were usually just individual days. Years ago now. Even things that should make me happy or excite me leave me with nothingness. I am still able to smile and laugh at a good joke, but I am not happy at all.

 

[princejohnny]

No. I've had one singular happy moment in my entire life. It was just that, a moment. It is not likely to happen again.

 

[hanz]

I was overall happy around my mid twenties to late twenties but even then I had the occasional manic episode or other mental health issues.

 

[Forever Sleep]

I've had briefly happy times and certainly periods where I felt less suicidal. But as in- being grateful to be alive each morning- no. Most of it's been a struggle one way or another.

 

[FuneralCry]

No, I've always found existence to be undesirable. As after all existence is such a harmful imposition that just causes so much suffering, I will always hate how I was burdened with the ability to exist.
"Happiness" doesn't even exist to me, I see the idea of it as very delusional in this hellish and harmful reality, I've only ever found comfort in death, existence isn't for me.

 

[Smother]

i have never been happy for like more than 5 hours lol

 

[PixelPlant]

i don't even remember when i felt real happiness honestly. as a child i always felt numb or it was all just sadness. those two emotions grew as i grew older

 

[Finalnight]

I don't even recall the feeling or how it was like, If I ever felt real happiness, it's so long gone now

 

[Ashu]

Only in retrospect.

 

[WeDontKnowTheFuture]

Never for a prolonged period of time. As a kid i had some brief moment of hapiness and was feeling happy during my birthday or the christmas period.
As a teenager i had some good experience as my first time on weed but it was quite rare.

 

[F@#$]

Fleeting moments of happiness surrounded by years of self-loathing and misery.

 

[stxrdustprincex]

As the title suggests.. I mean a period of your life when you felt really happy and living life to the full, never wanting it to end.

For me late forties, twice in my life, once in my mid twenties for 2-3 years and the other time in my mid thirties for 2 years.

i don't think i've had a period of my life where i felt like this. i have days when my spirits are up and my heart doesn't feel as empty, but i don't think there's ever been a prolonged period.

 

[@siniy_cat]

Well my depression only started at around 16, but even then I would say that I felt rather melancholic and wasn't suicidal. My suicidal ideation only began 2 years after that, as soon as i got my first job. Ever since then I felt happy for a while when I got my first girlfriend.
I wouldn't say that after turning 18 I felt happy to be alive for more than a couple days or maybe weeks (Edit: except the first ~2years with my ex). Most of the time I either live with an active desire to die, when I am anxious or just a general indifference towards life.
Occasionally I guess I get moments of happiness when I am remembering the past.

 

[Nanako]

I was happy untill my early twenties, that's when my health began to deteriorate and life stopped being fun

 

[Borgrot]

I've found happiness in small moments here and there, sometimes even stretches of time, but as is my wont I inevitably ruin everything for myself and for everyone around me. The misery descends like a curtain over everything. I've fucked it up again.

 

[hermestrimegistus]

I was happy last august. Delusional, fantasy based, maybe. But I felt wanted. Even if like I said was a fantasy and delusional. And nothing but roleplay. And then a couple years ago in between being abused I did have moments of happiness. Granted it was in a relationship that was the textbook definition of stockholm syndrome and trauma bonding. I'm not sure I've ever experienced a healthy happiness. Like, ever. I'm not sure I'd even deserve to

 

[traumer]

of course i had happy moments in the past but overall being alive has never been fun for me since i was a kid. i was always on my own, i guess i was born an overthinker. always wanted to be a grown-up but turns out it's really not the case you only get more depressed by the time passes :D only time i can say that i was actually happy is last summer and it ended horribly sooo...

 

[DisturbedParanoid]

As the title suggests.. I mean a period of your life when you felt really happy and living life to the full, never wanting it to end.

For me late forties, twice in my life, once in my mid twenties for 2-3 years and the other time in my mid thirties for 2 years.

when i was with my girl, this last year, now she´s gone and my time has come, just waiting some details