Discussion Has someone ever found out you were suicidal?

[Ardesevent]

And how did they react?
My dad recently found me out, apparently decided to go through my stuff out of concern and found the surgical knife I was using to cut. Took it and stashed it away, and took a lot of other 'harmful items' away too. Basically anything that had a pointy end.
After that though, he made it all about himself. Basically how much I pain I put him through, and how it destroy him if I died, and how he wouldn't have anyone to take care of him when he got old. Typical pro-life lecture, but it still makes me feel a bit guilty.

 

[Unlucked]

Similar situation with my parent finding out, except when my mom found out she literally didnt bat an eye and instead asked me if I wanted a funeral or not. Your dad sounds like he loves you a lot.

 

[Nymph]

I hinted it to my parents and my dad said that if I ever do anything to myself it will destroy his worlds because everything he does is for me. And my mom was kinda meh because she probably doesn't believe me or thinks I just wanna make her miserable

 

[Deleted member 18655]

I put my parents through about 30 years of hell and worry. I've been quite separated from them for a year now. As far as they're concerned I'm happy and doing well finally. They've both just retired so it feels like a milestone or a gift I can give them - I'm not dragging them down to the pit I'm on. It's a wonderful feeling!!

But it means that the news of my ctb will come out of nowhere, hurt them more because they'll have wanted to help me and it will drudge up old memories.

(There needs to be a broken heart emoji here...)

 

[TAW122]

Not directly with the exception of my father prying too deep and accidentally discovering my intentions indirectly. During that time, I tried to downplay and hide my intentions and was highly paranoid during the few weeks surrounding it because I don't want to draw unwanted attention and/or additional red flags on it.

There were other times where someone indirectly started to probe me for asking questions about various topics, not exclusively about suicide, but related to death and such. It turns out they were patronizing me and talking down to me like a child, so I got a bit offended that they were getting into my business and my affairs. I only asked an curious question about whether something allowed something, from a philosophical perspective and suddenly that guy started to question me. I was offended that even asking such a question was met with an invasion of privacy and intent as well as scrutiny, I felt uncomfortable. Since then, I've always made an effort to avoid such topics IRL for fear of raising red flags or getting unwanted probing into my privacy and peace of mind.

 

[muffin222]

No. I keep it to myself so I don't raise any suspicion

 

[LonelyNick]

I have a very old friend who's chronically ill and we share our woes and desire to end it all. We talk over messenger because we live in opposite coasts. I'm very lucky to have him. No one else knowns.

 

[Lmd]

I told everyone about my situation. Some are worried but my familiy is ok with it and said nothing so everything's ok

 

[Wisdom3_1-9]

I was "rescued" from the site of my first attempt. My husband, mother, mother-in-law, and five friends in four different cities were on the hunt for me. So yeah, they found out.

 

[draw a circle]

Not really? I sometimes joked about suicide and my friend knows I'm struggling but they probably thought my suicidal jokes are just jokes. Like they know I kinda wants to die but also, who doesn't? We have said things like we want to die but they're slowly improving I think whereas I'm just dropping lower.

 

[FriendofDeath]

Yes. Right after the death of my son, my brother, sister and their spouses surrounded me and pushed for me to get help. It was most uncomfortable and not very helpful. My poor mother was the one who had to wonder every day whether or not I was going to wake up. Both my psychiatrist and therapist know I am somewhat suicidal, mainly because if I'm asked whether I want to hurt myself I can't lie. At this moment I am mostly emotionally numb, so I am able to survive. Physically things are getting more difficult again. I know there are some people who were friends that couldn't deal with me because they knew I was on the edge and instead of asking or reaching out, they ran. Notice I said "were" friends.

 

[Taki]

In general I don't talk to people and actually have no one close in my life, so there's no one who's likely to find out. On the other hand, having no one to talk to is incredibly difficult. Either way I don't see the point of telling someone about it.

 

[2020wanderlust]

I told my partner after a heated argument. He was relived because he finally had an explanation for why I havent been myself for the past two years. But I wish i had not impulsively let my feelings show as he is constantly aware of my state of mind. He doesnt want me to get help and thinks he can help me recover..

 

[lostangel]

Years ago I typed my goodbye note to my friends at the time on discord. After my attempt failed I was mortified. I was so embarrasses and afraid I regretted telling them anything. They responded by trying to call me. I ended up not going through with it. Thankfully they didn't call the police so I was saved being locked up. I tried to delete the messages as quick as possible. I was such a fool.

They haven't brought it up since that day.I haven't talked to them in a year now. I will never tell anyone again.

 

[ryla2090]

I did tell my parents/older brother about them and was able to get help, and I was able to recover to a certain extent. But after a while I decided it really wasn't worth hanging on anymore, and I've hidden my intentions/plans for a while(a month or so if I'm correct). I made some fairly rash decisions which I thought at the time was well planned, and now that I'm living with my parents again, things will be harder. but I did manage to start formulating a decent enough plan that won't fail or be discovered, like my last attempts.

 

[Dreamless Sleep]

I told my mom once when I was upset... that I didn't plan on being around long. Didn't phase her a bit. She didn't even respond. I wasn't surprised.

My daughter borrowed my laptop once when she was at my house and she saw this page. She didn't seem at all surprised I would be browsing a site like this, as she's depressed and has BPD and suicidal herself. We have a fucked up family. *shrug*

 

[LetzteAusfahrt]

Nobody found out, I said it.

Apart from various friends on forums, I also said it to some people from the RL. But I talked to them a lot beforehand to find out how they feel about suicide.
They understand my decision and accept it.

And I also told my therapist that I won't be seeing her in 2021, but she can't do anything without an exact time.

 

[Life_and_Death]

i told my boyfriend at the time and asked him to keep it to himself. he decided to blurt it out to all of our friends after i begged him not to. one friend ran after me and gave me a hug. but i only talk to 1 person from the group now and he's like family to me :)

i told my mom and asked for a therapist. she pretended to care for 12hrs then acted like i never said it. she even scoffed at me when she saw my cuts.

 

[Zappfe lover]

My mommy found out. Said that she would kill herself first so I could understand the pain she would go through. If I suffer, you have to suffer too, basically.

 

[HappyMstake]

No, but when I was a teenager my boyfriend found out that I was cutting and told me I was doing it the wrong way if I wanted to kill myself then do it the long way and then he just started laughing.

That's one of the reasons I'll never tell anyone. They wouldn't take it seriously anyway.

 

[HuskyD'hiver]

I probably have to everybody in light conversation, but I always phrase it in a joking manner, same as everyone else does. I have had actual conversations with my friends about if they wanted to CTB and the ones who said yes, always clarified that they would be highly unlikely to do it. Outside of some serious conversations with family members that I and they have surely forgotten about by now, I don't think they know; I don't know if that is a good thing or a bad thing...

 

[figurehead]

My daughter once overheard me saying "I want to kill myself" whilst on the phone with my psychiatrist. I dunno why I said that, I never really say that aloud. Anyway I traumatised her. She knows I'm bipolar and what bipolar are like, but I don't think she's got or had real grasp of what it is "to want to die". My husband was aware with that and even said (I'm a die-hard The Cure fan) "what if you killed yourself and next thing they release an album". Well that kept me alive lol This is getting too long I'd better shut up.