Even if I had a buddy, I wouldn't trust them. I'd assume they'd try and fuck it all up.
I can understand why many adults are alcoholics. What I don't understand is why they try and quit. Being sober would be hell.
Because I hate alcohol, even at age 16 I knew alcohol was poison for my body so I chose to smoke weed and with weed there is no hangover it was so nice but now I just get anxiety if I try to smoke weed otherwise I´d do that instead.
And I have to quit since I am tapering off benzos and I have to be drug free before they will take me in to an outpatient clinic for anxiety and obsessive thoughts to try and treat my throat problem.
Also I don´t get any euphoria from alcohol anymore so it´s not as exciting as when I started drinking and I need 5-6 beers to feel drunk so it´s a drag to have to drink so many before feeling it and the stomach only holds 1 liter so I can drink 3 quickly and then wait 30+ minutes and drink some more so annoying and I don´t like hard liquor even when mixed with soda, I don´t get how people can take shots I tried a sip half a year ago from the bottle of a liquor bottle that was 40% and I almost puked alcohol is so disgusting.
Every day is exactly the same for me. In pain. Suffering. Five years of this now.
I had depression since I was late 13/early 14 but still lived life and had a fun an exciting life in my teenage years as you probably have seen me saying a million times but the last 6 years has been nothing but suffering.