Discussion Has anyone here been to prison/been homeless?

[olvalgon]

I might end up in both situations if I get kicked out by my family. I was wondering how bad it is? I live in Ireland.

I've heard that generally when you end up homeless, you face being spat on, beaten, fingers stomped on, stabbed, raped (if you're a woman). kicked etc...

Similar things in prison.

Is it better to CTB if you end up homeless.

 

[RowdyH999]

Well, I've done some time. Currently on bail due to covid after being in around 2 years but looking at serious federal time. It's not that bad in reality. If you stick to your race and have respect, it's pretty smooth sailing. Stay away from debts and you would rarely get into a fight. Some places you go will do a heart check when you get into the block. That's testing your willingness to fight so they can see if you are weak. Too many politics involved in jail in the US. Any questions feel free to ask, I will answer the best I can.

 

[TriggerHappy]

my uncle / my cousin / myself have all had addiction issues - toughlove ended us all on the street. actually survived 'well' am good looking apparently so ended up a rentboy (screwed up every relationship for sure after!) on the street: have scars to prove it: i got hurt & I hurt others (physically etc). The street is f^&kn hard - tricky dodgy people come into your life and it becomes survival but you r on your own. it's not freedom in any way. it's another avenue of abuse (I got cut & raped & lost a lover to suicide). it happens.
sex / drugs / theft / guns transactions with pimps & pushers & i ended up in prison. the morning i had planned to ctb in a hotelroom - fate?! in prison you survive because you align yourself to your tribe: everything is a transaction. similar but different to street. started teaching in prison - awesome sense of self worth.
clawed my way out of the pit (lost all my friends - using & sober) because I'm a gifted teacher / designer / developer - had zero chances of rehab had to get in through movies & t.v /multimedia development (easy access & ex-con recovery friends) you would not believe my life when you meet me. i hide it well. it scares people away. when i struggle i think of sex-offenders / rapists etc & how hard it is for them re: register. and i get grateful. i have a semi-wealthy family with access to good lawyers. and i'm a whore i know how to work people. but it's insanely hard (self esteem worthlessness issues - fix things with your family!) try see things from their perspective yeah?!
you can become so meaningless / nothing / invisible: we walk past them on the street as if they were ghosts... they are. ones desperate to die.
my sponsor says i'm the 1% miracle. so did my students. it doesn't feel like it though. i worked recovery and got tenuous self -worth) then i get complacent / comfortable & relapse (start of lockdown) and invite the insanity (& possibility of incarceration in)
I'm sorry for the ranting and raving overshare - been a week full of tears so i guess it had to come out somehow. have been trying to type but lost looking at site page. apologies. forgive me. hope that helped.

 

[Toonloon]

Never been to prison. Been homeless most of my life.
If I ever end up homeless again I'll fucking ctb in an instant. It's horrible being homeless

 

[DisillusionedDragon]

@Toonloon I feel the same way. I have never been truly homeless, I only felt homeless but was "couchsurfing" for a little while. If I were to end up homeless I would definitely catch the bus as fast as possible. Even just feeling homeless was an absolutely horrible experience.

 

[WornOutLife]

I could never go to prison or be homeless. I'm really scared of both.
I would probably jump off a building or get drown (the methods I fear the most) before facing such a hell.

 

[GenesAndEnvironment]

I would just start stealing things in Minecraft if I became homeless. If I go to prison then I guess I'll be forced to rape other men (in writing) despite me, myself, not being homosexual but instead a heterosexual male. Not that there's anything wrong with being a homosexual male, but I am, myself, not that but rather heterosexual and only attracted to the opposite sex (women, not men, since men would be of the same sex as I currently am).

 

[olvalgon]

Never been to prison. Been homeless most of my life.
If I ever end up homeless again I'll fucking ctb in an instant. It's horrible being homeless

In what way?

There was a homeless man with cerebral palsy that was beaten and murdered a while back in my country. Did you ever face threats of physical/sexual violence?

Did you also have to eat out of the bin?

 

[Ashu]

In what way?

There was a homeless man with cerebral palsy that was beaten and murdered a while back in my country. Did you ever face threats of physical/sexual violence?

Did you also have to eat out of the bin?

I was homeless on and off in Toronto from the age of sixteen. I was sometimes assaulted and sexually molested. I certaInly ate out of garbage cans and bins, but not as much as I would have had to if there hadn't been so much food available for the homeless. I attempted suicide two or three times while homeless.

 

[Lost Magic]

Never had either experience but I live in a rough scheme and it does feel like a prison.

 

[S like suicide]

I lived as a "homeless" for three days ... I slept for one night on a bridge with my ex ctb partner and two nights in the attic of a skyscraper with the risk of being raped because there I met two real homeless !! It was during my plan to commit suicide ... I wasn't scared because I was going to kill myself but if I think about it now it's not a walk being homeless,it's fucking scary for so many reason,not have a bed where to sleep and rest etc !!! as for the prison .... well I practically live in 10 years imprisonment ... depression is like living in prison and having end-stage cancer at the same time so ...

 

[Zeus35]

I've been homeless but not to prison.

Well, I've done some time. Currently on bail due to covid after being in around 2 years but looking at serious federal time. It's not that bad in reality. If you stick to your race and have respect, it's pretty smooth sailing. Stay away from debts and you would rarely get into a fight. Some places you go will do a heart check when you get into the block. That's testing your willingness to fight so they can see if you are weak. Too many politics involved in jail in the US. Any questions feel free to ask, I will answer the best I can.

Is prison like the way it's portrayed on TV?

Well, I've done some time. Currently on bail due to covid after being in around 2 years but looking at serious federal time. It's not that bad in reality. If you stick to your race and have respect, it's pretty smooth sailing. Stay away from debts and you would rarely get into a fight. Some places you go will do a heart check when you get into the block. That's testing your willingness to fight so they can see if you are weak. Too many politics involved in jail in the US. Any questions feel free to ask, I will answer the best I can.

Is prison like the way it's portrayed on TV?

 

[Kurinoy]

Arrested twice (never been to prison), homeless twice.

 

[TriggerHappy]

Um. I'm an addict so jails; institutions and eventually death. The African prison system is tough :: it made me harder still :: became a dealer. HomelessNess was manageable my freedom and looks allowed me to work in prostitution. But you can't let yr defenses down... so was always on edge. Stay with people or find a shelter. There are serious crazies and harmful Ppl out there...

 

[onlyanimalsaregood]

Just one night homeless.