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DesperateOne
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- May 25, 2023
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I got the internet when I was 12 and it completely crushed my education, social life, sleep and overall mental health. At first it was fun and novel, but then that quickly turned into an unhealthy obsession. By just staring at the screen and brainlessly scrolling for 8-12 hours per day way into the night allowed to me to dissociate from real life and its problems. It completely replaced my social life. I just bonded more with online streamers instead of with family and other IRL humans..
Because of this, I missed out on all core elementary school and high school experiences that would enable me to become a functional social adult. Now I'm 24, living a NEET lifestyle with literally nothing to show for it. My brain and identity development is still stuck in elementary school where this addiction started.
I just want to go back and live out my life in the real world, grab all the amazing experiences that were offered to me and actually make something out of myself. I could've actually been present during encounters with people in real life, but instead I either always zoned out thinking about the internet or was just completely fried from the binging that happened the previous day. Overall this unmonitored addiction took everything away from me, including my childhood...
Did anyone have or has had severe problems like this with screens as well?
Because of this, I missed out on all core elementary school and high school experiences that would enable me to become a functional social adult. Now I'm 24, living a NEET lifestyle with literally nothing to show for it. My brain and identity development is still stuck in elementary school where this addiction started.
I just want to go back and live out my life in the real world, grab all the amazing experiences that were offered to me and actually make something out of myself. I could've actually been present during encounters with people in real life, but instead I either always zoned out thinking about the internet or was just completely fried from the binging that happened the previous day. Overall this unmonitored addiction took everything away from me, including my childhood...
Did anyone have or has had severe problems like this with screens as well?