I used to be addicted to coke and I've been in recovery 5 years now. Life didn't get better. I was promised by the world it would but it didn't. I'm more isolated. I have less sense of community. I'm just as depressed, but I don't get to escape it with a drug. I can't work, I'm disabled. I never feel joy, and wonder if my dopamine receptors even exist at this point. I also have severe treatment resistant depression plus anxiety/ADHD/who knows what else, none of which respond to meds, none of which improve with therapy. I don't want to relapse because my addiction wouldn't make things better. I wish I'd never quit often though. I wish I'd let it kill me. If past me had seen me now, I would never have quit. Absolutely not. And there's no one I can talk to about it. 5 years in recovery off coke, and I never did feel better. Things never got better. Can anyone relate?
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At least they took the pain away temporarily. Quitting drugs was the worst mistake I ever made when they could've just killed me so easily.
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