has anyone else gone from suicidal to sorta happy in a short period of time?

[mr.smileysad]

I went from suicidally depressed to almost happy in the span of about a month I'm not sure If I have buried it down so deep that I can't feel it (which is something I tend to do) or I have genuinely gotten past depression

 

[LifeSucks39]

I'm glad for you how did you achieve it?

 

[mr.smileysad]

I dont know thats why I'm here

 

[Squiddy]

I go from it in the span of minutes to hours (though I have both bipolar and BPD) right now, I wanna ctb

 

[mr.smileysad]

I go from it in the span of minutes to hours (though I have both bipolar and BPD) right now, I wanna ctb

I know I'm not bi-polar I don't bounce between the 2 I just went from one to the other surprisingly quick

 

[dysfunctional]

Glad you're feeling better. I've definitely made the switch but I'm certified Bipolar 1.

 

[BPD Barbie]

I go from it in the span of minutes to hours (though I have both bipolar and BPD) right now, I wanna ctb

Same here. Just spend my days swinging backwards and forwards, though I do love the mania. Makes me super productive.

 

[Squiddy]

Same here. Just spend my days swinging backwards and forwards, though I do love the mania. Makes me super productive.

Oh the mania is great. Love feeling like a bad bitch lol. Right now, I'm in the depression and idk what I'm gonna tell my psychiatrist today

 

[Deleted member 17949]

happens a lot to me. My mood tends to change very fast, and I find I hit very low points and then quickly bounce up to highs. Going back to low again is like a sudden random collapse in mood.

 

[muffin222]

Everyday. I experience that shift almost every single day. Within the span of a day, I swing from content and uplifted to suicidal and hopeless. It's exhausting and overwhelming

 

[User_01]

Yeah, I still get joy from listening to music or seeing a friendly, familiar face. I'm also not depressed or down about being suicidal, I know it will happen so I'm calm and well balanced at the moment. But alongside the moments of joy, I can suddenly become very tense and agitated for no reason.

 

[icanhasnick]

I did, over 10 years ago. I was in my late teens and I felt trapped. After my parents found the N2 tube and I had to confess, it seemed like things could change for the better, i got some hope, and I abandoned the idea. In this decade+ that followed, there have been some kinda-happy moments and kinda-happy years even, when it seemed like everything might turn out well somehow. But since March of 2015 it's all gone downhill. I aged, chances were missed, bridges were burnt. And now I come to regret not pulling through back then. But of course I wouldn't tell people not to try, not to give themselves a second chance. It could work.

Also, I would say I wasn't truly depressed back then, nor am I now. It's just loss of hope and feeling defeated, and the desire for ctb'ing comes from sober considerations, not from a depressive impulse. So maybe if you're just depressed and the will to suicide is a sympthom thereof, getting treatment may help.

Addendum: a mere month after giving up on ctb'ing then, I was excited and hopeful again. It didn't take a long time.

But in the end it didn't work out either.

 

[Megadeth]

I dont think ive ever felt genuinely happy but ive for sure had times where im at the lowest of lows about 3 weeks later i'll be pretty good lasting for about a month or 2.

 

[mr.smileysad]

I did, over 10 years ago. I was in my late teens and I felt trapped. After my parents found the N2 tube and I had to confess, it seemed like things could change for the better, i got some hope, and I abandoned the idea. In this decade+ that followed, there have been some kinda-happy moments and kinda-happy years even, when it seemed like everything might turn out well somehow. But since March of 2015 it's all gone downhill. I aged, chances were missed, bridges were burnt. And now I come to regret not pulling through back then. But of course I wouldn't tell people not to try, not to give themselves a second chance. It could work.

Also, I would say I wasn't truly depressed back then, nor am I now. It's just loss of hope and feeling defeated, and the desire for ctb'ing comes from sober considerations, not from a depressive impulse. So maybe if you're just depressed and the will to suicide is a sympthom thereof, getting treatment may help.

Addendum: a mere month after giving up on ctb'ing then, I was excited and hopeful again. It didn't take a long time.

But in the end it didn't work out either.

dude what you have described is exactly what I am feeling I didn't think anyone else would know what it was like pls pm me

 

[Amumu]

From 8 to 18, people used to tell me I was completely shit everyday so when somebody told me anything nice, I switched from dysthymia to euphoria.
But now I don't give a shit. I've been much more influenced by my teenage years than my adulthood.
Don't know if you've got a thing like that.

 

[mr.smileysad]

From 8 to 18, people used to tell me I was completely shit everyday so when somebody told me anything nice, I switched from dysthymia to euphoria.
But now I don't give a shit. I've been much more influenced by my teenage years than my adulthood.
Don't know if you've got a thing like that.

I'm still not an adult and my life has sucked quite a bit so far 5grd was prob one of my worst years until now and comments honestly don't affect me whether positive or negative but yeah seems pretty similar to what I've been through I'm sorry you had to go through such abuse, that rlly sucks

 

[icanhasnick]

@mr.smileysad ask here

 

[HowSoonIsNow]

Yeaa, I have several mood swings due the BPD, they happen really fast... that's one of the reasons why I want to CTB.

 

[icanhasnick]

Why did you want to off yourself a month ago ? (It's a rhetoric question, you don't need to tell me) Has this situation resolved, have you gotten over it, did it stop to matter ? If so, why ? Or what would it take to completely resolve ? These are the sort of questions you need to consider to know if you've buried it or fixed it. Although burial may also count as fixing in the longer term.

When I was willing to kill myself 10+ years ago, it was over something quite specific I didn't find a way out of. And it resolved in that I decided to go ahead and do it no matter what the price. So, I didn't bury anything, this was solved. But to that end you must know what it is that you want to solve. It can't be something unspecific, some "general feeling of doom but i don't know exactly why". If you don't know what it is that was making you feel so down, then maybe you're in the type of situation that can genuinely be solved through talk therapy, to find out what was the root issue.

And then, well, of course something else may come up later in life, getting over some shit now is no guarantee of not fucking up and ending in the same or worse state in the future, but there's no point taking decisions now anticipating that hypothetical grim future. Rather, let's try to keep foresight enough to not fuck up.