illvoid

illvoid

he/it
Aug 11, 2022
145
Recently this has become a more appealing option to me. I don't know if this is just poor decision making due to my mental health, but I know that I don't want to die. I simply don't want to live in my current situation anymore. I would be absolutely content with no longer existing, but I still have goals and ambitions that I'd like to fulfill & things that do make my life worth living. If it were possible, I would LOVE to disappear. I'm not talking about assuming a new identity, but rather moving completely off the grid and leaving my home behind. I think my life would be a lot more peaceful if only a select few people knew where I was & when. I honestly feel like this would be a better "way out" for me than CTB, and I'm curious if anyone else feels this way?
 
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N7_Alliance_Marine

N7_Alliance_Marine

Student
Sep 29, 2024
104
Disappearing may be a better option than self-deletion. I don't know to what extent the government would go through to find you or if they would just leave you be. It's definitely worth a shot to try that out. It could even be fun.
 
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cotton

cotton

If we could just re-focus...
Nov 6, 2024
71
Yeah the idea of starting again is good but I don't want to leave my country.

I can't start again fully, but if I do I need to make money I guess:/ if I could have a fresh start with a new job I'd seriously consider it but I don't want to leave the person I care about behind... I've done it so much I don't want to do it again.

But yeah, it's so appealing.

How would you sort of do it? I wouldn't know where I'd like to settle tbh rn
 
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Shadows From Hell

Shadows From Hell

If life is so short, why is it taking so long?
Oct 21, 2024
22
I've pondered that thought for years of disappearing, or ctb. These last few weeks, I've been leaning towards disappearing, and leaving no trace or paper trail of my plans or where I could be heading.

I am very seriously considering doing this once spring hits(just in case I gotta sleep under a bridge some nights).
 
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RiverOfLife

Member
Nov 7, 2024
27
Problem with disappearing is - no matter where you go, there you are.
 
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Warlord's Pulse

Warlord's Pulse

Time to end this endless war
May 27, 2024
70
Thought about this a lot. Sometimes, even considering fake my own death.
 
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illvoid

illvoid

he/it
Aug 11, 2022
145
Yeah the idea of starting again is good but I don't want to leave my country.

I can't start again fully, but if I do I need to make money I guess:/ if I could have a fresh start with a new job I'd seriously consider it but I don't want to leave the person I care about behind... I've done it so much I don't want to do it again.

But yeah, it's so appealing.

How would you sort of do it? I wouldn't know where I'd like to settle tbh rn
Honestly, I don't have much of a plan at this point. I think I would leave my country but I wouldn't be able to take a plane since there'd be a record of that. All I know is that I don't want to be found.
 
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AbacusRex

Member
Nov 10, 2022
11
I'd do this if I could. Problem for me is people would come looking.
 
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ruru_241

ruru_241

even angels get sad
Mar 12, 2023
73
i thought about this for so long, since a child! even thoughts of being kidnapped so i can be away from my situation, but ik if i were to be kidnapped it wont be any better. its just been a romanticized way of mine to get away from everything and be with one person.

recently, its changed to wanting to live away with my boyfriend. i want him to take me away from here and live with him in a safe place. away from friends and family
 
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JoeFailure

Mage
Apr 29, 2019
587
I've thought about that but it's almost impossible. There's always a way to track you. Unless you have nobody that would look for you, which it sounds crazy but would actually be kind of cool. You really could just assume a new life.

But yeah I'd still have to deal with being me.
 
katara

katara

tired all the time
Mar 17, 2022
152
Disappearing may be a better option than self-deletion. I don't know to what extent the government would go through to find you or if they would just leave you be. It's definitely worth a shot to try that out. It could even be fun.
𝐰𝐡𝐲 𝐰𝐨𝐮𝐥𝐝 𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐠𝐨𝐯𝐞𝐫𝐧𝐦𝐞𝐧𝐭 𝐭𝐫𝐲 𝐭𝐨 𝐟𝐢𝐧𝐝 𝐚𝐧𝐲 𝐨𝐟 𝐮𝐬? 𝐈 𝐚𝐥𝐰𝐚𝐲𝐬 𝐟𝐢𝐧𝐝 𝐭𝐡𝐞𝐬𝐞 𝐜𝐨𝐦𝐦𝐞𝐧𝐭𝐬 𝐟𝐮𝐧𝐧𝐲, 𝐬𝐨𝐦𝐞 𝐩𝐞𝐨𝐩𝐥𝐞 𝐨𝐧 𝐡𝐞𝐫𝐞 𝐭𝐡𝐢𝐧𝐤 𝐬𝐨𝐦𝐞𝐨𝐧𝐞 𝐢𝐬 𝐚𝐥𝐰𝐚𝐲𝐬 𝐚𝐟𝐭𝐞𝐫 𝐭𝐡𝐞𝐦. :ahhha:
 
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JoeFailure

Mage
Apr 29, 2019
587
𝐰𝐡𝐲 𝐰𝐨𝐮𝐥𝐝 𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐠𝐨𝐯𝐞𝐫𝐧𝐦𝐞𝐧𝐭 𝐭𝐫𝐲 𝐭𝐨 𝐟𝐢𝐧𝐝 𝐚𝐧𝐲 𝐨𝐟 𝐮𝐬? 𝐈 𝐚𝐥𝐰𝐚𝐲𝐬 𝐟𝐢𝐧𝐝 𝐭𝐡𝐞𝐬𝐞 𝐜𝐨𝐦𝐦𝐞𝐧𝐭𝐬 𝐟𝐮𝐧𝐧𝐲, 𝐬𝐨𝐦𝐞 𝐩𝐞𝐨𝐩𝐥𝐞 𝐨𝐧 𝐡𝐞𝐫𝐞 𝐭𝐡𝐢𝐧𝐤 𝐬𝐨𝐦𝐞𝐨𝐧𝐞 𝐢𝐬 𝐚𝐥𝐰𝐚𝐲𝐬 𝐚𝐟𝐭𝐞𝐫 𝐭𝐡𝐞𝐦. :ahhha:

I think (I could be wrong) what they mean by that is if someone reported them missing or if they have debts but with no record of them being dead, they do have ways to find you. You could probably run from the debts part but if you have anyone looking for you and they get the feds involved, it's really hard at this point to just "disappear" with all the ways they'd have to find you.
 
SnowLeopard21

SnowLeopard21

Terminal Sadcat
Oct 30, 2024
16
My life's goal is to eventually buy or build a vessel that can sustain me for months at sea. It's not an unusual thought, no.
 
fleetingnight

fleetingnight

incapable of shutting up
May 2, 2024
637
If I live, this is how I want to do it. I'm not sure how likely it is, but it's possible.
 
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Life'sA6itch

Student
Oct 29, 2023
136
Recently this has become a more appealing option to me. I don't know if this is just poor decision making due to my mental health, but I know that I don't want to die. I simply don't want to live in my current situation anymore. I would be absolutely content with no longer existing, but I still have goals and ambitions that I'd like to fulfill & things that do make my life worth living. If it were possible, I would LOVE to disappear. I'm not talking about assuming a new identity, but rather moving completely off the grid and leaving my home behind. I think my life would be a lot more peaceful if only a select few people knew where I was & when. I honestly feel like this would be a better "way out" for me than CTB, and I'm curious if anyone else feels this way?
I've thought of this and decided against it. I'd still have the same money problems and severe allergies but in a different location, but I'm certain it is a great reset for a fair number of people who can see it through.
 

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