Has anybody ever lost their partner to the grips of death?

[SuicidalSymphonies]

Yes, I've posted this in suicide discussion as I'll also mention that.

I'll be departing some time in 2021. I've now lost the love of my life who made my chronic illnesses and problems bearable.

Now I've got nothing to look forward to with my favourite person. I'm alone.

Only reason I'm waiting is because I want to be of sound mind and make no impulsive decisions.

He passed away on Sunday morning and I found out on Monday. It was an accident, too. He was from here.
I had absolutely no way to prepare for a goodbye I'd never get..

I want to lay down in the woods and quietly pass among the wildlife.

 

[Worthless_nobody]

My heart goes out to you. I am so sorry. My ex fiance died not from ctb but tragically from a rare disease. So I understand the pain of loosing a partner..someone you love. I have lost way way too many loved ones in my life. It destroyed me when I found out about his drath. He was completely failed by healthcare services in my country. I'm still not over his death...I doubt I ever will be. I wasn't there for him in his last moments and I'll never forgive myself. He sent me letters and I cry reading it. The relationship had a lot of problems and was rocky but I loved him. Grief is complex. I understand your pain and your not alone here. Sending you hugs and much love.

 

[Deleted member 23009]

The world can really be a cruel place a lot of the time.. And then we sometimes find people who make things bearable, and to have to lose them too.. it's shit really..

I'm so sorry to see the pain you're going through.. I recently lost a person I thought was my future too.. Not in the same way but the pain of loss is hard to fight against.. and it feels really hopeless..

But you're not alone, even if it feels like it right now... I hope and wish you can find peace in whatever way you decide to do so.. Lots of love and hugs to you

 

[Goodbye710]

Mine passed in June. I watch videos on offthelefteye on youtube which has been very comforting for me. I have to watch and read the books for at least 2 hours first thing in the morning or I'm a wreck. Maybe this video will help.

And

 

[Deathbydemo]

I'm so deeply sorry for your loss. Losing someone you love deeply can really mess you up. I've also lost the love of my life, though not in the same capacity you lost yours, but the grief is one and the same. You are not alone. It's so hard to keep living when you feel dead inside already.

 

[Life sucks]

I'm sorry this happened. Life is sad and tragic. Its sad that life always takes away the people and everything we love. Its painful. Words aren't enough to describe the amount of pain.

I wish you peace and I'll send you infinite hugs and love dear

 

[muffin222]

I'm so sorry for your loss. I can't imagine your pain and grief

My ex died from suicide a few weeks after we broke up, and it triggered me into a deep depressive episode

 

[Cant Maintain]

I'm very sorry for your loss.

 

[NeverGoodEnuff]

My husband of twenty years died from cancer after four and a half years of cancer treatments.

Honestly, he suffered so much from the treatments that by the time he died, peacefully btw, it was a relief. I was at his side the last few months, held his hand those last moments.

So many people around, so much to do even though everything had been planned in advance, it wasn't until after the funeral and everybody left that I felt the realness of it all. It was pretty awful.

Twelve years later, I still miss him now and then. I wonder what life would be like if he had lived. He was such a calming influence, one of those quiet, solid, dependable types. Then again, my adventurous spirit has led me down paths that I would have never traveled if he was still with me. Still, I think I would give up all of that to have him back.

I try not to think about it.

 

[Cakes]

I'm so sorry this happened to you. My boyfriend CTB in June. I don't want a life without him.. :( He was my world..

 

[oblivion_seeker]

I'm so sorry for your loss.

I understand how you feel as I also lost the love of my life in March. I attended his inquest yesterday and it was also concluded to be an accident.

I'm only a message away should you want to talk to someone who understands