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12x mental hospital stays
- May 21, 2023
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I've come across a lot of individuals both irl, on this site, online friends, etc, who have the mindset that because they are suicidal they are entitled to do absolutely nothing. They claim suicidal ideation and use it as a crutch. Go to college or trade school or get a job when I'm fully capable of doing so and actually have aptitude in that area? "No thanks I'm suicidal I just can't do anything, and I also can't do anything right :((".
I know someone in particular who knows all the fundamentals of electricity, electrical math (which is hard), repairs his own electrical problems and his neighbors, can build things and tinker with things and put them back together, pick locks, hot wire things, hunt, butcher, you name it. He's extremely gifted. He instead opts to treat everyone in his life terribly and leech off of everything including me, and claims he is too suicidal to do anything. He has a domestic violence record and thinks his mental illness entitled him fists to use on a woman.
I also know people who have neglected animals to the point of death online and in person. They usually feel guilty which is a start, but they keep getting animals. They keep letting them make messes inside the house, don't clean litter boxes and let ammonia and filth build up from that, can't be bothered to feed their animals or give them water, don't let their dog outside, couldn't be roused from bed for any emergency or their pets need to use the restroom. And they think they are entitled to an animal for "emotional support". Guilt or acknowledging your problems is a start, but it does not erase your own poor choices or the death/ neglect of an innocent creature.
My family has alot of animals, but personally at college I do not have one in my dorm. I visit home sometimes. I have hypersomnia. Even when left completely alone at home for days or weeks I wake up to let my dogs out, feed them twice a day, have set times to let them out, give them attention, involve them in my life. I wake up early to feed chickens and goats and then I go back and take a nap when life permits me to. There is absolutely no excuse.
I'm on and off with a guy who sees all people who work or go to college as "capitalist pigs" but he depends on his mother and me and housing from the state, and would prefer to donate plasma or turn out drugs/tricks instead of any gainful employment. (He's the same guy I mentioned in the earlier paragraph). He is not grateful for my money. I give him 10 dollars and he asks where the rest of it is. I gave him all the resources to get help including disability funds or vocational rehab and he refused.
A lot of people glorify a neet lifestyle or begrudge working or hate the economic state of the world but it's not like I want to work either. Not many people genuinely do. Life is not an advertisement or hallmark movie no matter how happy other people seem to be. There is no excuse for leeching off of people or extorting them for money whilst treating them badly. If you had severe autism, or Down syndrome, or catatonic schizophrenia to where you were completely unaware of your actions and their consequences, I feel like that could be an excuse. But many people are fully capable of working or making meaningful change but refuse and mistreat others in their wake.
I feel even worse for the children of these sorts of people. I was treated poorly by my father, he is one of those types that refuses to work or do much of anything. He neglects his cat. He refused to see me a lot growing up and he'd get so frustrated he had me over at his place that sometimes he'd yell at me if I came out of my room. He did attempt suicide and got mental treatment- but has still never taken accountability or improved his life. Real harm has been done to me and his cat and my bio mother. There is no effort there to mend these relationships or problems due to the crutch of "I'm mentally ill" "I'm suicidal".
There's a lot of people on this earth who died mentally many years ago and they make it everyone else's problem. They mistreat others and have such a strong sense of entitlement, they believe their own issues are the most severe and important, that nobody else has ever suffered, and that nobody can ever understand. That is simply not true. There are many deeply miserable people who still work, who don't bully or mistreat or neglect people and animals, who do what is needed of them.
I know nobody asked to be born. I didn't ask to be born either. But do I sit on my behind all day miserable about it instead of making any change or take it out on other people? No. I'm at college and I literally have a noose already tied hidden in my closet in a box. I am functionally disabled by a couple things I've got going on. I've been through alot. I still show up to class and pull my weight. I still care for my family and my animals. I treat my friends well to the best of my ability. I treat anyone I date to the best of my ability.
I read a quote that really defined how I felt about this topic and James Baldwin said it:
I know someone in particular who knows all the fundamentals of electricity, electrical math (which is hard), repairs his own electrical problems and his neighbors, can build things and tinker with things and put them back together, pick locks, hot wire things, hunt, butcher, you name it. He's extremely gifted. He instead opts to treat everyone in his life terribly and leech off of everything including me, and claims he is too suicidal to do anything. He has a domestic violence record and thinks his mental illness entitled him fists to use on a woman.
I also know people who have neglected animals to the point of death online and in person. They usually feel guilty which is a start, but they keep getting animals. They keep letting them make messes inside the house, don't clean litter boxes and let ammonia and filth build up from that, can't be bothered to feed their animals or give them water, don't let their dog outside, couldn't be roused from bed for any emergency or their pets need to use the restroom. And they think they are entitled to an animal for "emotional support". Guilt or acknowledging your problems is a start, but it does not erase your own poor choices or the death/ neglect of an innocent creature.
My family has alot of animals, but personally at college I do not have one in my dorm. I visit home sometimes. I have hypersomnia. Even when left completely alone at home for days or weeks I wake up to let my dogs out, feed them twice a day, have set times to let them out, give them attention, involve them in my life. I wake up early to feed chickens and goats and then I go back and take a nap when life permits me to. There is absolutely no excuse.
I'm on and off with a guy who sees all people who work or go to college as "capitalist pigs" but he depends on his mother and me and housing from the state, and would prefer to donate plasma or turn out drugs/tricks instead of any gainful employment. (He's the same guy I mentioned in the earlier paragraph). He is not grateful for my money. I give him 10 dollars and he asks where the rest of it is. I gave him all the resources to get help including disability funds or vocational rehab and he refused.
A lot of people glorify a neet lifestyle or begrudge working or hate the economic state of the world but it's not like I want to work either. Not many people genuinely do. Life is not an advertisement or hallmark movie no matter how happy other people seem to be. There is no excuse for leeching off of people or extorting them for money whilst treating them badly. If you had severe autism, or Down syndrome, or catatonic schizophrenia to where you were completely unaware of your actions and their consequences, I feel like that could be an excuse. But many people are fully capable of working or making meaningful change but refuse and mistreat others in their wake.
I feel even worse for the children of these sorts of people. I was treated poorly by my father, he is one of those types that refuses to work or do much of anything. He neglects his cat. He refused to see me a lot growing up and he'd get so frustrated he had me over at his place that sometimes he'd yell at me if I came out of my room. He did attempt suicide and got mental treatment- but has still never taken accountability or improved his life. Real harm has been done to me and his cat and my bio mother. There is no effort there to mend these relationships or problems due to the crutch of "I'm mentally ill" "I'm suicidal".
There's a lot of people on this earth who died mentally many years ago and they make it everyone else's problem. They mistreat others and have such a strong sense of entitlement, they believe their own issues are the most severe and important, that nobody else has ever suffered, and that nobody can ever understand. That is simply not true. There are many deeply miserable people who still work, who don't bully or mistreat or neglect people and animals, who do what is needed of them.
I know nobody asked to be born. I didn't ask to be born either. But do I sit on my behind all day miserable about it instead of making any change or take it out on other people? No. I'm at college and I literally have a noose already tied hidden in my closet in a box. I am functionally disabled by a couple things I've got going on. I've been through alot. I still show up to class and pull my weight. I still care for my family and my animals. I treat my friends well to the best of my ability. I treat anyone I date to the best of my ability.
I read a quote that really defined how I felt about this topic and James Baldwin said it:
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