brokenwaves
i need to cross a border that’s hard to define
- Feb 19, 2021
- 118
god i hate birthdays, i hate any day with an expectation that i'm supposed to be happy and enjoy myself. birthdays always bring up all this shit from the past, i can't help but sit there all day thinking of everything that's gone wrong in my life. i'm sitting here right now thinking about how my parents brought me into this world, abandoned me as a teenager, and now i'm left to deal with the aftermath. i didn't ask to be born, i didn't ask for any of this and yet society expects me to stick around for it all? i want out. i live with two family members and the whole day has been complaining about random bullshit. they convince me to have a family meal bc it's my birthday and then force me to eat food that i don't even like, misgendering me in my birthday card & using the wrong name and pronouns for me all throughout the day. they really couldn't even try for one day to just put some effort in. i don't have the energy for this anymore, i really don't