sourcherry
Member
- Mar 3, 2026
- 50
i didnt plan on CTBing on my birthday like some other people on the forum. im still waiting for things to turn around as a last hail mary next year. idk feels weird im not as crazy young as some forum members but im officially an adult who is supposed to have my shit together.
i dont feel like one.
this is gonna sound naive but i smoked my first cigarette to see if it made a difference lmao. it didn't. i did get a nice headrush that beat taking daily zoloft! i wish ciggies weren't so stinky tho. i thought about my CTB as i blew out the candles on the cake i bought for myself. as bad as this forum can be im thankful i learned what i can from other people posting about their experiences.
ill be ready to die next year despite whatever ends up fucking me this year.
i dont feel like one.
this is gonna sound naive but i smoked my first cigarette to see if it made a difference lmao. it didn't. i did get a nice headrush that beat taking daily zoloft! i wish ciggies weren't so stinky tho. i thought about my CTB as i blew out the candles on the cake i bought for myself. as bad as this forum can be im thankful i learned what i can from other people posting about their experiences.
ill be ready to die next year despite whatever ends up fucking me this year.
