Venting Happy Birthday, Charlie.

[Eyler]

It was my birthday a couple days ago, yet instead of feeling a bundle of joy to this new upcoming year of life to me I just felt scared.

No, not scared. I just felt numb, I mean come on what am I supposed to feel anyway? Excited for new chances that I know myself am unable to do? That's hopeless.

I am physically and mentally getting weak, do you really think I have enough time left? Because I don't. I'm tired. I do not wish to fail my dear brother, my kind one who's only young. I do not wish to place any trauma to him neither my three friends.

I have no choice anywhere.. but that's okay. I'm just waiting till my body both emotionally, physically and mentally dies out completely.

 

[mortuarymary]

Wishing you a belated birthday xx

 

[Eyler]

Wishing you a belated birthday xx

Thank you, I appreciate your kindness, may your upcoming days be hopeful.

 

[Kit1]

Eyler, I am so sorry that you have found your birthday to be stressful, numb and depressing. That really is a sad way of starting a new year - however when pain in there weaving one year into another, it is understandable that passing years doesn't mean anything but more pain possibly.

However I hope that you do have a positive (or at least a better year) than before - belated birthday wishes and wishing you all the best for a Happy, Healthy, Peaceful and Contented year ahead.

Best wishes

 

[not-2-b-the-answer]

Wishing you a belated Happy Birthday.

 

[Eyler]

Eyler, I am so sorry that you have found your birthday to be stressful, numb and depressing. That really is a sad way of starting a new year - however when pain in there weaving one year into another, it is understandable that passing years doesn't mean anything but more pain possibly.

However I hope that you do have a positive (or at least a better year) than before - belated birthday wishes and wishing you all the best for a Happy, Healthy, Peaceful and Contented year ahead.

Best wishes

In all honesty, each year I wonder that instead of showing the more troubles it brings, it shows a surprise day in disguise just for your sake. A little of puppets play, just for your sake. I mean maybe that's just me? Mm.

However, putting that aside.. I do appreciate your words. Your kindness even if we both know the truth, it brings me happiness. We are humans after all.. compliments, comfort I guess it all depends on the kind of person we are.

Thank you for the belated birthday wishes and my nonsense, Best year to you aswell.