Hanging tonight?

[Summerhappyness]

I am thinking of hanging myself pretty soon. But I am just unsure if I should do it. Spring break has arrived and so I don't have school ( thank god). I was thinking about delaying it till spring break was over but I might be able to do it tonight.

 

[Lady black]

Seems you are not ready if you think about doing it later. So it´s better you do it later

 

[Summerhappyness]

I think I am gonna try tonight

 

[Nem]

Godspeed, all the best Hopefully your decision isn't in haste
Peace/Hugs

 

[woxihuanni]

Spring break?

 

[Summerhappyness]

Nvm xd. Wanna watch huntik till the end and have doctors appointment tomorrow so Im gonna do it tomorrow. Sorry for the confusion

Spring break?

Sorry meant autumn break. 1 week off from school.

 

[Lady black]

So good luck and a comfortable hanging

 

[Summerhappyness]

I will post my method too btw for anyone curious. Im going to drink some alcohol along with 6,5 mgrams of benzos and 280mg of ssris. And full suspension

 

[JimFord99]

Spring break?

It is only autumn/fall.

I am thinking of hanging myself pretty soon. But I am just unsure if I should do it. Spring break has arrived and so I don't have school ( thank god). I was thinking about delaying it till spring break was over but I might be able to do it tonight.

Why do you want to hang yourself? If you are not sure, don't do it. How old are you, and what is your story.

 

[Summerhappyness]

18yo and I have been thinking about it for over a few weeks now. I realized that I will forever be an outcast. I can't stand being so incompetent. I don't have any friends at school and at my last workplace my boss and colleagues always got mad at me. I have pretty much given up now. I think I want to live, but maybe that is SI. It would be pathetic and selfish of me if I would keep on living because I would keep causing trouble for someone else. In school I do pretty normal though, good grades and could get into a university since I'm in my last year, but nothing would change after that. I would still be anxious. My parents blamed me too for their divorce. My mom has schizophrenia and she seems happy now though but is always inside. My father and little brother dont talk to each other anymore and I feel I am also to blame for that. I thought about meds could maybe solve my issues, since my anxiety is my nr1 reason for suicide, but since I dont think it will change, I'll ctb.

 

[JimFord99]

Try and find another job? And, hey, don't feel guilty for your parents separation, don't take the blame. This is just an admittance of your parents failure to sort out their problems. Don't take all the blame.

 

[Summerhappyness]

It is my blame though. My father told me that if I wasn't born they wouldn't have seperated as when i was born, my mother developed some type of mental disorder and even came into school with a weapon. I caused her criminal record, be put in jail and to be institutionalized till this day (it has been like 9years)

 

[JimFord99]

It is my blame though. My father told me that if I wasn't born they wouldn't have seperated as when i was born, my mother developed some type of mental disorder and even came into school with a weapon. I caused her criminal record, be put in jail and to be institutionalized till this day (it has been like 9years)

Yeah, sue you did. Now listen: they are giving you excuses for their own failures. Shifting the blame to someone else is the easiest option out. Was it you who went to school with a weapon or you mothers choice? Well, I don't think you are at blame at all.

 

[Summerhappyness]

It is from 9 years ago so it is pretty blurry. News sites said that I came home with an injured thumb. My mother asked about it and I said I was bullied (even though I wasn't). My mom went to school 2 days later and sjowed up holding a weapon, threathening the child who did that to me. I don't know why I said that because I don't think I even was bullied. I wish I could turn back time.

 

[JimFord99]

You can't. I wish the same, but it is not possible. Still, don't take he blame.
Can I just ask what country you are living in at the moment?

 

[melancholy]

Im going to drink some alcohol along with 6,5 mgrams of benzos and 280mg of ssris.

why bother with the SSRI?
Is there something I do not know but SSRI should not do anything.
Have you mixed Benzo and alcoholic drinks before?
Be careful you do not just black out and make a mistake.
Good Luck

 

[Summerhappyness]

why bother with the SSRI?
Is there something I do not know but SSRI should not do anything.
Have you mixed Benzo and alcoholic drinks before?
Be careful you do not just black out and make a mistake.
Good Luck

I really don't know. I am mixing everything so I might relax and kick si.

 

[melancholy]

I really don't know. I am mixing everything so I might relax and kick si.

the SSRI wont relax you and what benzo is it?
The alcohol and benzo will make you very comfy

 

[Summerhappyness]

the SSRI wont relax you and what benzo is it?
The alcohol and benzo will make you very comfy

Clonazepam.