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stargazer

Arcanist
Nov 19, 2018
433
Edit: originally wasn't going to do 'one of these goodbye's' but then I thought who cares.

Hoping to go by hanging (don't care full or partial) in a day or a few days from now.
Would've preferred a more peaceful method with a partner, but a partner never showed up for CO and there was once a guy ordering SA / N but he's been active for months.

So here am I, now resorting to hanging. Don't worry, I'll wear some sunglasses to soften the blow.

Just don't want to be interrupted until I'm beyond resuscitating or defiblerating. Some people can be just so damn nosey.

Hopefully all should go well, and virtually painlessly. Hooray!?

Basically, this is goodbye (in advance).
 
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OkTotti

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Nov 6, 2018
616
Good luck... hope you find your peace.... but based on most of the threads of people who try CTB by hanging,it is very difficult. No shame if you happen to fail.

As for a partner, wasn't there someone in Melbourne who seemed like the ideal partner for you since he had a car and wanted to CTB with charcoal also? Was he the partner who didn't show up?
 
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Retched

I see the chaos in your eyes.
Oct 8, 2018
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I hope you find the peace that you seek. I know you tried really hard for a partner. Trust me, I know the feeling of dismay when it doesn't work out. Take care!
 
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ouvreyes

シシ
Oct 7, 2018
131
Sorry that it had to be this way, but I wish you good luck all the same. Go easy.
 
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Sinbad

Sinbad

Self-Annihilation is loading...95%
Nov 27, 2018
542
I would have been your partner but Australia is of reach for me.

Hanging is actually a good choice but you need the total determination to die. If you have few doubts about CTB now you might end up being your own worst enemy.

Good luck with your attempt.
 
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stargazer

Arcanist
Nov 19, 2018
433
I'll hope to have some Ribena-like red wine or Pinot noir on hand to soothe the nerves. I'm normally a teetotaller (non drinker).
 
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stargazer

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Nov 19, 2018
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Getting cold feet now preferring different method, yet to be determined. Typical of me
 
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OkTotti

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Nov 6, 2018
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Getting cold feet now preferring different method, yet to be determined. Typical of me
It's a big decision. No one will blame you for getting cold feet. I keep on saying i want to CTB but i have not done it yet.
 
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Jiva

Jiva

I want ...
Nov 18, 2018
493
Good luck. Have a peace.
 
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Stealth

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Oct 1, 2018
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Edit: originally wasn't going to do 'one of these goodbye's' but then I thought who cares.

Hoping to go by hanging (don't care full or partial) in a day or a few days from now.
Would've preferred a more peaceful method with a partner, but a partner never showed up for CO and there was once a guy ordering SA / N but he's been active for months.

So here am I, now resorting to hanging. Don't worry, I'll wear some sunglasses to soften the blow.

Just don't want to be interrupted until I'm beyond resuscitating or defiblerating. Some people can be just so damn nosey.

Hopefully all should go well, and virtually painlessly. Hooray!?

Basically, this is goodbye (in advance).
Good luck, hope you find the peace you are looking for.
 
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OkTotti

Wizard
Nov 6, 2018
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To the OP, is finding a partner that vital for your plans to CTB? I guess your not going with hanging.... anyways best of luck
 
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furax53

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Nov 13, 2018
191
bonne chance et j'avoue que trouver un partenaire qui est sûr de ctb n'est pas facile
 
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stargazer

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Nov 19, 2018
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To the OP, is finding a partner that vital for your plans to CTB? I guess your not going with hanging.... anyways best of luck
Yes.

I'll either keep waiting until February or I may just lose the plot and just randomly or impulsively jump somewhere or something, with notes stored somewhere or diaries elsewhere. Maybe a small note in my pocket. Either way you get the idea.

Guess I've waited this long, only a little while longer, if that.
 
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gingerplum

gingerplum

Enlightened
Nov 5, 2018
1,450
Yes.

I'll either keep waiting until February or I may just lose the plot and just randomly or impulsively jump somewhere or something, with notes stored somewhere or diaries elsewhere. Maybe a small note in my pocket. Either way you get the idea.

Guess I've waited this long, only a little while longer, if that.
I warmly wish you all the best, whether you find it among the living or amidst the stars.
 
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wanttodie

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Apr 19, 2018
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good luck
 
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