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Elementalist
Nov 11, 2020
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I took a little break from SS to %100 focus on recovery a try to move away from ctb.

My doctor prescribed me clonazepam at .5mg twice a day everyday. It worked well. Better then any other medication I've ever tried.

It gave me hope. I'm on it only until my gene sight testing comes back but it's taking awhile.

Now I can feel my anxiety creeping back and it started just today. Now the dilemma is it because it's my birthday and I'm anxious because of that? Or is it because it's roughly been that time when people start to build tolerance? Or is it both?

I'm really tired. Even when I was at my best on this temporarily wonder drug I still considered ctb. I did hav


Honestly days kind of blur together so idk how long I've been on clonazepam.

If It's in one of my posts somewhere I'll find it and up date in the comments when done with this possibly. If I remember/have energy.

haha fml
January 12th is when I started taking it.
 
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Happy Birthday!
 
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Autistic loser
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Why does your birthday make you anxious?
 
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Dec 4, 2020
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Happy Birthday

As for your question .. its likely a combination of factors ... while I understand anxiety may impede your ability to enjoy this day I do hope you can find a way to find the joy of 'you' in it.
 
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Family gatherings. Phone calls. Socializing etc etc. also with each year just more responsibility and pressure put on
Right, pressure in combination with not even wanting to live is a real pain.
 
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