tarquinn95
Member
- Nov 1, 2023
- 11
I had it all, or so I thought.
Great job, own business turning over good money.
I am an instructor with the RAF Air Cadets in the UK and loved every minute of it!
Great holidays, loads of great people around me…
But then suddenly, I've lost it all. Money gone, business going broke due to industry down turn choking us, false allegations in the cadets mean I am suspended.
Only thing I have left in my life is my loving partner.
A few years a go I left the prison service due to poor mental health and attempts at CTB. Ever since then I haven't been able to keep my emotions in check. I went into a new industry, TV & Film, and was flying! Then the break down started, I attempted CTB again last year and they took my firearms certificate away… and since then the slippery slope has just got steaper.
So I lay here, awaiting police, awaiting debt collectors, awaiting the moment where I say enough is enough! CTB is the only way I can finally be in control again, make my own path, and rid the world of me. Me who is just a burden to all.
This forum is helping me, the PPH, the advice… atleast I'll be able to do it properly this time.
Now I play the waiting game.
Thank you all,
Christian x
Great job, own business turning over good money.
I am an instructor with the RAF Air Cadets in the UK and loved every minute of it!
Great holidays, loads of great people around me…
But then suddenly, I've lost it all. Money gone, business going broke due to industry down turn choking us, false allegations in the cadets mean I am suspended.
Only thing I have left in my life is my loving partner.
A few years a go I left the prison service due to poor mental health and attempts at CTB. Ever since then I haven't been able to keep my emotions in check. I went into a new industry, TV & Film, and was flying! Then the break down started, I attempted CTB again last year and they took my firearms certificate away… and since then the slippery slope has just got steaper.
So I lay here, awaiting police, awaiting debt collectors, awaiting the moment where I say enough is enough! CTB is the only way I can finally be in control again, make my own path, and rid the world of me. Me who is just a burden to all.
This forum is helping me, the PPH, the advice… atleast I'll be able to do it properly this time.
Now I play the waiting game.
Thank you all,
Christian x