Venting Had a really bad day.

[anonbpdgirl]

Sorry, I guess I just need to vent. I don't have anyone to talk to about this stuff.

A couple months ago, the latch on my door broken suddenly and without warning. I was locked out my flat despite having my keys. Luckily, I had my phone so I go a locksmith and forced my landlord to pay up for it. Yesterday, it happened again.

It cost me £200. I didn't have my phone, it had gotten locked in. I had to pay it myself. I do not have this kind of money. I am completely fucked for finances and this is just... the tip of my iceberg. I feel like fucking killing myself. I don't even think my landlord will pay me back this time because it happened once before, and it will look weird. I hate trouble, I hate causing "drama" or issues. But I am now down a lot (LOT) of money, and I have no way of getting it back.

Outside of my shitty mental health, money is one of the biggest things that make me want to CTB. I have barely stopped crying since it happened yesterday. I don't know what to do with myself. I can't handle any shit like this. I want to curl up in a fucking ball and just die.

I just want to stop feeling.

 

[lymbo]

ur unemployed? why u have money problems?

 

[khw777]

Sorry, I guess I just need to vent. I don't have anyone to talk to about this stuff.

A couple months ago, the latch on my door broken suddenly and without warning. I was locked out my flat despite having my keys. Luckily, I had my phone so I go a locksmith and forced my landlord to pay up for it. Yesterday, it happened again.

It cost me £200. I didn't have my phone, it had gotten locked in. I had to pay it myself. I do not have this kind of money. I am completely fucked for finances and this is just... the tip of my iceberg. I feel like fucking killing myself. I don't even think my landlord will pay me back this time because it happened once before, and it will look weird. I hate trouble, I hate causing "drama" or issues. But I am now down a lot (LOT) of money, and I have no way of getting it back.

Outside of my shitty mental health, money is one of the biggest things that make me want to CTB. I have barely stopped crying since it happened yesterday. I don't know what to do with myself. I can't handle any shit like this. I want to curl up in a fucking ball and just die.

I just want to stop feeling.

I'm Sorry for your frustration and suffering.
I know money problems can be overwhelming and horrible. I hope everything gets better for you.

 

[lonelymess]

I understand how you feel. When you are down, even the tiniest stupid things can make you go mad or panic or whatever. let alone a huge bill when you cannot afford it. It's all way too much.

Don't know if this helps, but here's my point of view , since you said you ve no one else to talk about it:
You said something broke, so that's not your fault I guess? Unless you've been slamming that door like crazy, but let's assume you didn't do anything to wreck it. That the same latch broke twice just tells me that either it wasn't fixed properly or fixing it up isnt a good idea and it needs replacement.
Maybe your landlord would think the same? Please do not assume you have to pay for it this time.

I don't know, I just hope things aren't as bad rn as they seem with this £ 200 bill.

 

[anonbpdgirl]

ur unemployed? why u have money problems?

No, I am not unemployed. I study part time and work part time, around 20-30 hours a week. I am the only one paying the rent and bills, I earn minimum wage. We just about getting by. Something like this means we can't eat for weeks. It's money we don't have.

I understand how you feel. When you are down, even the tiniest stupid things can make you go mad or panic or whatever. let alone a huge bill when you cannot afford it. It's all way too much.

Don't know if this helps, but here's my point of view , since you said you ve no one else to talk about it:
You said something broke, so that's not your fault I guess? Unless you've been slamming that door like crazy, but let's assume you didn't do anything to wreck it. That the same latch broke twice just tells me that either it wasn't fixed properly or fixing it up isnt a good idea and it needs replacement.
Maybe your landlord would think the same? Please do not assume you have to pay for it this time.

I don't know, I just hope things aren't as bad rn as they seem with this £ 200 bill.

I am going to at least try to get him to pay the £200 back to me. I'm not hopeful even though I *know* it's not my fault, it's the faulty latches fault. I feel as though landlords can often look down on young tenants like me, first time renters, who they'll just presume it's their fault.

I have a really bad relationship with my mum but I've even asked her for a bit of help. Not money-wise, just advice in the situation. She can be a bit of a bull in a china shop with stuff like this.

Thanks so much for your comment. It means a lot. It's crazy how much things like this - barely even big deals - can just kill you when you're already down.

 

[Crushed_Innocence]

I totally get it. SOmetimes we are hanging by a thread and we never know what little thing will be the tipping point. Are you on the first floor? Can you leave a window open or something just in case for the future? Id hate for this to happen a third time... Fuck it maybe just leave the door unlocked...lol.....

Sometimes shit happens at the WORST possible times.

Hope you find a little peace with everything..

 

[pain in my heart]

I'm sorry about the amount of involuntary stress bestowed upon your mental wellness. It's very much unfair for you to be taking care of everything alone.

 

[Stan]

A couple months ago, the latch on my door broken suddenly and without warning. I was locked out my flat despite having my keys. Luckily, I had my phone so I go a locksmith and forced my landlord to pay up for it. Yesterday, it happened again.

You might have some warranty with the locksmith who replaced the first one. You might have to check with them

 

[anonbpdgirl]

I totally get it. SOmetimes we are hanging by a thread and we never know what little thing will be the tipping point. Are you on the first floor? Can you leave a window open or something just in case for the future? Id hate for this to happen a third time... Fuck it maybe just leave the door unlocked...lol.....

Sometimes shit happens at the WORST possible times.

Hope you find a little peace with everything..

No I'm second floor and live in a cold country so it would be much too cold to leave the window open. Also can't leave the door unlocked - it's not one of the ones that work like that.

I'm sorry about the amount of involuntary stress bestowed upon your mental wellness. It's very much unfair for you to be taking care of everything alone.

Thank you so much. <3

 

[noaccount]

I'm sorry you're in this situation where you have to work for minimum and some property owner gets to take most of it just because. (Minimum wage is a way of saying "we'd pay you less but it's illegal." ) I'm glad you're trying to get the 200 refunded! You deserve to be able to rest and have what you need.

 

[sleepy dog]

The property owner must pay for all repairs and replacements unless you did the damage to it. You have to follow thru and get them to do it. It won't happen if you don't try.

 

[Sweet emotion]

Can't you go to the police and report your landlord?

 

[anonbpdgirl]

Update: he's not paying me back. Says he doesn't think I should have to. Says I should've called him. Have no idea how I supposed to do that without my phone but there we go. I'm fucked.