Guys

[rabbithole]

I have sn opportunity tomorrow (I meant "an" opportunity but it changed it to sn so that's appropriate) but I'm so terrified of my parents finding my body and being traumatized. I think I should wait until my car is fixed to do it outside the house...even though doing it in my room is way comfier.

Anyone else in a situation where your trauma or circumstances are forcing you to ctb? Like it's less of a decision and more of a necessity. Maybe that's for most people on here - it's the lesser of the two evils. ALMOST. They're actually so neck and neck that I don't know which to choose...miserable painful life or ruin my parents' lives. Any advice? Is it worth it to suffer just so my parents don't?

 

[WornOutLife]

If you really think it'll be a trauma for your parents, I think it's a wise decision to wait a bit more.
CTB is a necessity for me. My body just wants to die and I'm not interested in this world anymore.

Anyway, whenever your parents and people who love you find out about your death, it'll be a traumatic experience!
Still, I think CTB somewhere else instead of one's own house is a better choice and less traumatic.

 

[rabbithole]

If you really think it'll be a trauma for your parents, I think it's a wise decision to wait a bit more.
CTB is a necessity for me. My body just wants to die and I'm not interested in this world anymore.

Anyway, whenever your parents and people who love you find out about your death, it'll be a traumatic experience!
Still, I think CTB somewhere else instead of one's own house is better and less traumatic.

Thank you for your response. I think the same. But I also think I'm way less likely to do it outside of the house...ugh. I wonder if it matters if they'll be traumatized either way.

I'm sorry for your situation. Nothing brings you any peace or joy anymore? :(

 

[Mentalmick]

Just take a long drive to a nice remote place.

 

[Nymph]

I'm gotta ctb at home even tho I know it will be sad for my mom but I don't wanna go out and do it there, because it's uncomfortable and I'm also scared of some random person finding me or a weirdo inspecting/r*ping my corpse or something. But I do get what you mean, I'm not that thoughtful tho lol

 

[Spitfire]

I have sn opportunity tomorrow (I meant "an" opportunity but it changed it to sn so that's appropriate) but I'm so terrified of my parents finding my body and being traumatized. I think I should wait until my car is fixed to do it outside the house...even though doing it in my room is way comfier.

Anyone else in a situation where your trauma or circumstances are forcing you to ctb? Like it's less of a decision and more of a necessity. Maybe that's for most people on here - it's the lesser of the two evils. ALMOST. They're actually so neck and neck that I don't know which to choose...miserable painful life or ruin my parents' lives. Any advice? Is it worth it to suffer just so my parents don't?

Unless you are in a hurry? How much longer do you think you will have to wait for your vehicle to be fixed?

 

[WornOutLife]

Thank you for your response. I think the same. But I also think I'm way less likely to do it outside of the house...ugh. I wonder if it matters if they'll be traumatized either way.

I'm sorry for your situation. Nothing brings you any peace or joy anymore? :(

The only things that bring me peace and joy are alcohol and cigarretes lol.
Still, I feel like loving somebody again before CTB, maybe that'll help! (or make things worse!)

 

[SuicidallyCurious]

This is an ethical issue only you can decide.

 

[Nexuno]

Anyone else in a situation where your trauma or circumstances are forcing you to ctb? Like it's less of a decision and more of a necessity.

Yes, many times. My suggestion is to take the time you need to decide without feeling any pressure or being in a rush.

 

[rabbithole]

Unless you are in a hurry? How much longer do you think you will have to wait for your vehicle to be fixed?

Weeks. I'm in a hurry only because consciousness has become painful due to my physical and mental state.

 

[Teal_Blue_Dreams]

Thank you for your response. I think the same. But I also think I'm way less likely to do it outside of the house...ugh. I wonder if it matters if they'll be traumatized either way.

I'm sorry for your situation. Nothing brings you any peace or joy anymore? :(

i agree with @WornOutLife. def do it someplace else. also, take your time to make a decision. honestly, you have plenty of time to die.

The only things that bring me peace and joy are alcohol and cigarretes lol.
Still, I feel like loving somebody again before CTB, maybe that'll help! (or make things worse!)

hahaha! i like those items as well!

loving someone could go either way. i think about that sometimes. it could change everything for the better OR, ultimately, make me even more sad. (if that's even possible)

 

[rabbithole]

agree with @WornOutLife. def do it someplace else. also, take your time to make a decision. honestly, you have plenty of time to die.

It doesn't feel like I have a lot of time. It's painful to be alive truly. argh. You're right that I should do it somewhere else but I feel like I'll never do it in the car. I'm much more likely to actually do it at home. If I leave the sn in the car it might degrade also. I dunno. Frick.

 

[Teal_Blue_Dreams]

It doesn't feel like I have a lot of time. It's painful to be alive truly. argh. You're right that I should do it somewhere else but I feel like I'll never do it in the car. I'm much more likely to actually do it at home. If I leave the sn in the car it might degrade also. I dunno. Frick.

hurts just to breathe. don't i know it! oh, i get it girl. seems easier to do at home but then it will ruin your home for whomever else lives there. im getting a hotel room for that very reason. you know?

i think one of the benefitsof sn is the shelf life so don't worry ab it degrading in the car.