Gunshot "Practice Run" without bullets

[indianachrome]

ok so i wake up early as shit...I used to be able to go work and make money but i'm disabled now. So I thought about buying a gun and going down to the reservoir and practicing on my head... Thoughts? I wouldnt take any bullets. I have to wait until summer when my settlement hits and need to get all the $ put in trusts for my teenage kids. I could also do a last vacation with them this summer.

The issue is employment and being disabled and disability supposedly to take 2 years. It's kinda weird - i don't feel as much CTB tendencies when i'm doing shit. But i lay in the bed so much it's fucked.

 

[traingirl]

I'm not encouraging suicide in any way but speaking from personal experience practicing just gives you more anxiety. Sometimes I shudder when I think about the times I put the cold metal inside my mouth. I can literally still feel what it tasted like mixed with the soft palate. If I would've just done it, it probably wouldn't have been as hard. Now, I probably couldn't do it unless I just cleared my mind and didn't think about it.