Help Gun as a birthday present?

[sugarb]

My 19th birthday is coming up in a bit over a week and I just now thought of this

I don't have any history of suicidality (that anyone knows of), I'm not a minor, I'm seen as fairly responsible/stable and being able to CTB before I even start college would be amazing. Or, if nothing else, it would cut down how long it'd take and the whole absolute secrecy and needing a car part.

I talked about being interested in buying a gun with my dad briefly a few days ago (in a very not-suicidal way, obviously) and he wasn't as immediately against me doing it as I expected. I think this is sort of viable.

The only hairballs are

1. I've never really shown interest in guns before. Might be suspicious.
2. I don't have a driver's license, just a permit. Not sure that's valid ID. But I'd have parent signature
3. The guilt. This one's of the most concern to me. My dad/mom buying my CTB method for me or taking me along the way would probably A. weigh heavy on them B. might damage their familial relationships. But at the end of the day I really want out and it's going to do damage no matter how I do it.

Thoughts? Bad idea?

 

[Ash]

If they're genuinely loving and caring and good people, then don't do it that way. Not if you're a decent person.

 

[GoatHerder]

Ask for money for your birthday then buy it yourself?

 

[sugarb]

Ask for money for your birthday then buy it yourself?

I don't have the means to get to a store and I'm unsure if a permit is a valid ID. I have money.

 

[sugarb]

If they're genuinely loving and caring and good people, then don't do it that way. Not if you're a decent person.

Is it more decent to walk to the train tracks and off myself that way?

How about overdosing on pills from the medicine cabinet? Hanging myself with an extension cord? My parents bought those, too.

Or waiting until I'm able to drive myself- potentially years- racking up college fees all the while?

I'm asking for thoughts and input on the viability of this plan, not judgement. Call me indecent if you want, but this is a lot kinder to everyone involved than a whole host of other options.