madgod

madgod

psycho, bi, wanting to die • 22
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i want to make a mess. i want something painful and graphic that someone needs to clean. i want to leave notes blaming the people who raped and ruined me, i want my abusers to be haunted by me. does anyone else feel prone to wanting a guilt trip after you are dead? does anyone else feel like their attempt should hurt those who hurt you?
 
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GoodPersonEffed

GoodPersonEffed

Brevity is my middle name, but my name was TL
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Not at all, but I loved that post.
 
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faust

faust

lost among the stars
Jan 26, 2020
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I guess I don't want anybody to feel guilty. But would not refrain from some mess too. Maybe something I would never do in clear state of mind. Something very dangerous and risky. Or would have an insane party. But these are probably just my thoughts.
 
madgod

madgod

psycho, bi, wanting to die • 22
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I guess I don't want anybody to feel guilty. But would not refrain from some mess too. Maybe something I would never do in clear state of mind. Something very dangerous and risky. Or would have an insane party. But these are probably just my thoughts.
i've overdosed at a party before and i wished everyone would have just kept partying around me, my dumb ass turned blue and everyone knew something was wrong :,)
 
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i've overdosed at a party before and i wished everyone would have just kept partying around me, my dumb ass turned blue and everyone knew something was wrong :,)
I guess there are a few people on every party with alcohol and drugs who take too much of these things. If not an overdose, then a mess is totally guaranteed :)
 
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Giraffey

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Personally, I want my closing scene to be a peaceful and tranquil affair and part of my current plan involves taking extra steps to prevent any vomiting post-unconsciousness and minimise any convulsions or incontinence and leave my body in a reasonably salubrious state etc.

If I did want to cause havoc though, I'd be thinking about the people who would be finding my body and potentially designing it as an experience. For example, one of the common hazards of death by electrocution is that first-responders instinctively touch the body and receive a shock themselves (which is usually non-fatal, but it surely adds to the terror of the experience).

If you have some DIY skills then a fairly gruesome death could be achieved by building a contraption on the basis of a simple pulley and weight system. I read a case report some years ago of a man who bolted a metal spike into the floor of his workshop and hung a heavy weight above his head on a pulley, when he cut the rope the weight dropped and impaled his head on the spike, driving it into his brain (he presumably lost consciousness almost instantly).

Using almost the same system a number of people have constructed home-made guillotines or weighted blades like daggers or knives, these are the kind of unusual suicides that make the news and almost inevitably get written about in the medical/forensic literature as well. With a little additional construction work one could even construct a number of guillotines, each consisting of a simple pulley system, a weighted blade and some guide rails, they could all be affixed to the same stanchion and when you cut the rope (or perhaps employ a more elaborate timer system like the flame of a candle) - the blades drop and your body is sliced into pieces - perhaps one individual piece to represent each of the people in your life who ripped your soul apart.

Just some ideas, perhaps not particularly practical for someone without construction experience. Taking it a step further then, let's imagine that you also set up a webcam to record a live-stream (a fixed-length video recording to capture a brief video suicide note and then the process of your actual death). Once the webcam has finished recording let's say a ten minute time period, then post-mortem a script on your computer takes the finished video recording, uploads it to your Dropbox or whatever and emails a link to the people you want to haunt.

Innocently, they click the link and the true screaming horror of decapitation and mutilation shocks them to the core. These ideas are becoming increasingly dark, which is quite unlike me... But then again, I was inspired by the dark passion in your original post!
 
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Giraffey

Giraffey

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Personally, I want my closing scene to be a peaceful and tranquil affair and part of my current plan involves taking extra steps to prevent any vomiting post-unconsciousness and minimise any convulsions or incontinence and leave my body in a reasonably salubrious state etc.

If I did want to cause havoc though, I'd be thinking about the people who would be finding my body and potentially designing it as an experience. For example, one of the common hazards of death by electrocution is that first-responders instinctively touch the body and receive a shock themselves (which is usually non-fatal, but it surely adds to the terror of the experience).

If you have some DIY skills then a fairly gruesome death could be achieved by building a contraption on the basis of a simple pulley and weight system. I read a case report some years ago of a man who bolted a metal spike into the floor of his workshop and hung a heavy weight above his head on a pulley, when he cut the rope the weight dropped and impaled his head on the spike, driving it into his brain (he presumably lost consciousness almost instantly).

Using almost the same system a number of people have constructed home-made guillotines or weighted blades like daggers or knives, these are the kind of unusual suicides that make the news and almost inevitably get written about in the medical/forensic literature as well. With a little additional construction work one could even construct a number of guillotines, each consisting of a simple pulley system, a weighted blade and some guide rails, they could all be affixed to the same stanchion and when you cut the rope (or perhaps employ a more elaborate timer system like the flame of a candle) - the blades drop and your body is sliced into pieces - perhaps one individual piece to represent each of the people in your life who ripped your soul apart.

Just some ideas, perhaps not particularly practical for someone without construction experience. Taking it a step further then, let's imagine that you also set up a webcam to record a live-stream (a fixed-length video recording to capture a brief video suicide note and then the process of your actual death). Once the webcam has finished recording let's say a ten minute time period, then post-mortem a script on your computer takes the finished video recording, uploads it to your Dropbox or whatever and emails a link to the people you want to haunt.

Innocently, they click the link and the true screaming horror of decapitation and mutilation shocks them to the core. These ideas are becoming increasingly dark, which is quite unlike me... But then again, I was inspired by the dark passion in your original post!

I'm sorry to all (and in particular the OP) for dragging up an old thread, but I've been feeling a bit guilty about this reply lately. It's been mentioned a few times that there is a worrying trend among certain parts of SS encouraging very graphic and violent methods, and whilst I haven't necessarily witnessed it myself - I appear to have done just that, to the extreme.

I'm sure the OP just like most other people reading this would lack the necessary construction skills to rig up such an intricate and complex contraption, and on proper reflection, during the time it would take to construct, they would likely come to their senses and realise that such a gruesome and undignified ending is not at all what they want or deserve - once the bloody romanticisation and glamour such as I painted above is taken out of such thinking.

So for what it's worth and to all involved, and in particular to the OP @madgod I'd just like to say that I'm sorry, in particular for the brutish lack of empathy my response must-have portrayed.
 

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