Discussion Guilt

[SweetDreams500]

Is guilt a part of what makes you suicidal? It is for me

 

[JustAMatterOfTime]

No it's what stops me from ctb this second.

 

[Morituri_Te_Salutant]

Partially, I guess.

 

[_elliott]

absolutely.

 

[DunnoWhyButYeah]

Yes.

 

[katesmith]

Yes
This is why i have to wait till hotels open in uk to ctb because i cant let my mum find me. I think that would break her

 

[GenesAndEnvironment]

No, basically nothing is my fault (no cap).

 

[whywere]

Yes
This is why i have to wait till hotels open in uk to ctb because i cant let my mum find me. I think that would break her

Hi! I read your post and it broke my heart and made me cry. I am 65 years young and no one EVER should feel that they are alone. Reading your post 1 thing that REALLY stood out is how kind and thoughtful you are. You ARE part of our global family and you can always pm me if you want. I am in the Midwest in the U.S., so like 7 to 8 hour difference, but I will respond. You have so much to give yourself, your mum and all of us here. Hugs, sunny days with bright blue skies just for you!! All the best to you!!! Walter ( yep real first name, 65 years young, gray hair and NEVER phony)

 

[WornOutLife]

Guilt is a weird think because it's both keeping me here and making me feel like leaving this world world at the same time.

 

[FuneralCry]

The reasons why I am thinking about ctb are for reasons out of my control. I believe It is my fate to be like this. I don't feel guilty if I was to do the act itself, it is an rational response to suffering and I know I am better than this existence. Odviously I would feel guilt to those left behind but that is simply inevitable and is human nature.

 

[yive]

nothing is my fault, i didn't ask to be born

 

[SweetDreams500]

what i meant to ask is if you have ever done something so shameful that overwhelms you with guilt forcing you to commit suicide

 

[Rolliewoo]

200%

 

[Tortured_empath]

Yes. Big time. And shame too. Social emotions are the worst.

 

[Desi]

Yes, guilt and shame. They put you in an awful place: between being a misfit, prone to social dereliction and death, that you have to trigger and it's bloody hard.
i'm a failure let's face it, the only thing i can be proud of is i never hurt anyone, i slowly ruined and killed myself, i'm suicidal, not homicidal.
ctbing is just the cherry on the cake, i don't want to die, i'm dying slowly.
I know that i had an anxious overly protective mother and a weak depressed father, it doesn't make good children, specially boys.
so, yes, guilt and shame are powerful.