Venting Guilt

[RockCandy]

I'm not mad at her for it and I understand why, but I stupidly told my sister I wanted to die and she told me that would be her last straw and I just wish she never told me that. My date is in a little less than a month and I feel like I can't bring myself to do it now

 

[Abyssal]

Probably sounds stupid but what is it about your sister saying that which makes you reconsider? Don't mean to imply your desire to die isn't real, I know from experience that it most certainly is, but is it possible you could use this to drive you towards recovery?

 

[RockCandy]

Probably sounds stupid but what is it about your sister saying that which makes you reconsider? Don't mean to imply your desire to die isn't real, I know from experience that it most certainly is, but is it possible you could use this to drive you towards recovery?

It doesn't sound stupid, no worries :)
She's been there for me through everything and I don't want her to think she could've done more or it's her fault. The thought of her potentially catching the bus because of something I've done is terrifying to me, I really don't want her to hurt herself

 

[Heem wasnt there]

It doesn't sound stupid, no worries :)
She's been there for me through everything and I don't want her to think she could've done more or it's her fault. The thought of her potentially catching the bus because of something I've done is terrifying to me, I really don't want her to hurt herself

I totally get this. It's one of the things that has held me back for so long. I don't want to hurt the people around me. It makes for a confusing issue. On one hand I don't want to be a catalyst of anything negative, but on the other hand no one is responsible for someone else's actions. Idk if that makes it easier in my brain or not. Just a thought.

 

[Kit1]

Often it is people who are close to us, people we might love or might love us who keep us grounded and on this planet.