Help guilt tripping. im sick of it.

[untothedepths]

refer to title. This is a major problem for me. This is something that is a huge weakness. I'm a people pleaser due to how i was raised most likely, so anytime someone i was moderately familiar of does it I already begin to just go with what they want. Mostly because - 1. i dont know whats best, im a child in an adult body i guess. 2. I get an overwhelming feeling of guilt/remorse/feel like i fuck up all the time. Im convinced i must have done something wrong and i must try to fix it, but im trying to break this so i have some fucking ego instead of none. im sick of being a doormat, please send help. I cant control my emotions so im trying, attempting, to use rationality.

 

[Life_and_Death]

im trying to break this so i have some fucking ego instead of none. im sick of being a doormat, please send help. I cant control my emotions so im trying, attempting, to use rationality.

i believe in you
i personally find working on anything healing related (physical or mental) to be like carving a statue from stone. it doesnt look like much at first. youre going to take away one small chip at a time and feel like youre getting no where. and every now and again a break to admire your work or just rest is ok as well.
i hope your determination sees you through