AwokenToReality
Just wanna close my eyes, and feel alright
- May 27, 2020
- 90
Haven't been around here in a long time, believe my last post was in December. After a few times delaying my bus journey due to fear in failing, I decided to take a step back from visiting the site on a daily basis and speak to my GP about my problems. I was placed on antidepressants and to be fair originally i did find they increased my mood and found myself not as often in the dark place I was frequenting for a large portion of last year.
Then March hits and ruins everything. I started having some medical problems and due to my GP and the local urgent care centre failing to acknowledge my symptoms, this problem was left untreated until I collapsed and I finally got some help and has now left my body in a bad state. I have lost the ability to walk without support, and my vision and hearing have deteriorated, as well as a large portion of my body remaining weak and numb, leaving me to struggle with day to day tasks and things I have enjoyed doing.
I'm still in the hospital receiving help from physiotherapists, however I've been told it may take a long time for my body to recover and it seems like they're rushing to get me out of here based on that so they have an empty bed. Over the past week or so I've found myself back in the dark place I was in last year and getting rather intrusive thoughts again. I'm quite worried that I'll. never be able to walk without support again, do simple tasks like getting washed and dressed or do the things I used to enjoy and it's having quite a negative impact on me mentally.
Anyways, guess I'm back, so hey again
Then March hits and ruins everything. I started having some medical problems and due to my GP and the local urgent care centre failing to acknowledge my symptoms, this problem was left untreated until I collapsed and I finally got some help and has now left my body in a bad state. I have lost the ability to walk without support, and my vision and hearing have deteriorated, as well as a large portion of my body remaining weak and numb, leaving me to struggle with day to day tasks and things I have enjoyed doing.
I'm still in the hospital receiving help from physiotherapists, however I've been told it may take a long time for my body to recover and it seems like they're rushing to get me out of here based on that so they have an empty bed. Over the past week or so I've found myself back in the dark place I was in last year and getting rather intrusive thoughts again. I'm quite worried that I'll. never be able to walk without support again, do simple tasks like getting washed and dressed or do the things I used to enjoy and it's having quite a negative impact on me mentally.
Anyways, guess I'm back, so hey again