Venting growing up in a cult

[pumpkins334234]

I feel like it is literal cruelty to force me to continue to be alive after the childhood that my parents put me through. It's actually kind of funny, they raised me in a Christian cult which was (among other things) centered around having s*x with children. Like who can continue living after that? I experienced a literal horror movie upbringing and now they want me to what, get a job, go to university, pay taxes. Integrate into the society they told me was bad and evil for the majority of my life. Two of my brothers have already committed suicide, as have the majority of second generation adults (children who were raised in the cult). It's stuff that's too evil and horrible to live with. It's genuinely laughable and ridiculous. Imagine doing ridiculous shit for the first half of your life like having to fuck old men, being assaulted, forced COCSA, busking, homeschooling, no contact with the outside world, living on a commune, memorizing the Bible and having no real formal education. Then suddenly I have to be a functioning member of society. It feels like suicide would be the ultimate revenge. People just expect me to keep on living like there has been no harm done to me, like my brothers aren't dead. The people who have done this have largely escaped consequence. Like it's genuinely just ridiculous that people expect me to be alive after all that?? Like no, sorry, I will be killing myself.

 

[Nikitatos]

I've never heard of such a branch of Christiainity. Sex outside of marriage is generally frowned upon......with children or adults.

Do the authorities know about what is going on?

 

[pumpkins334234]

I've never heard of such a branch of Christiainity. Sex outside of marriage is generally frowned upon......with children or adults.

Do the authorities know about what is going on?

thanks for your reply :) yes, there have been very public court cases + raids related to this group. their current policy states they don't support child-adult relations and it's hard to track down members (to charge them) since they frequently move countries and change their names. it's not so much a branch of Christianity so much as a cult made by an insane old dude. it's mostly died out and i haven't been in the group since i was about 15.

 

[indefinitesleep2]

Im sorry what happened to you man, theres no limit to how evil people can be

 

[katara]

I've never heard of such a branch of Christiainity. Sex outside of marriage is generally frowned upon......with children or adults.

Do the authorities know about what is going on?

The only one i heard of is NXIVM. I'm not sure how the pedo stuff got mixed into it. I grew up Catholic and i never heard anything that was pro pedo but now i see conservatives all the time pushing for lowering age of consent because they say it's traditional, yet i never heard of this when i was growing up. IDK

 

[ForgottenAgain]

That is beyond horrible...I had to Google COCSA to know what is was, can't believe someone could force children to do something like that...

I don't know what I would do in your shoes. Surviving in a nightmare to then having to wake up to a completely different reality, damaged and broken. I'm so sorry that happened... That is all unfair as hell. I hope those people suffer deeply for all the pain they caused. Ffs...

 

[Otaku]

Can i ask you which country you were born in? If not. What part of the world?

 

[bandoscii]

This is so horrible, I am sorry you had to go through that. You have every right what you want to do with your life. Wish you the best

 

[pumpkins334234]

Im sorry what happened to you man, theres no limit to how evil people can be

thank you, i genuinely really appreciate it. i like to think there's no limit to how good people can be too

The only one i heard of is NXIVM. I'm not sure how the pedo stuff got mixed into it. I grew up Catholic and i never heard anything that was pro pedo but now i see conservatives all the time pushing for lowering age of consent because they say it's traditional, yet i never heard of this when i was growing up. IDK

i've never heard of NXIVM before, but definitely seems similar to my cult via manipulation techniques. lots of celebrities were raised in it as well

That is beyond horrible...I had to Google COCSA to know what is was, can't believe someone could force children to do something like that...

I don't know what I would do in your shoes. Surviving in a nightmare to then having to wake up to a completely different reality, damaged and broken. I'm so sorry that happened... That is all unfair as hell. I hope those people suffer deeply for all the pain they caused. Ffs...

thank you so much i really really appreciate it. things are easier these days, i know i will die soonish, so i'm making the most of it right now and doing pretty ok (in comparison to others at least). i have a pretty normal life, which is hard to believe sometimes but it's such a joy compared to how it used to be.

Can i ask you which country you were born in? If not. What part of the world?

i was born in asia, the cult is pretty worldwide though

This is so horrible, I am sorry you had to go through that. You have every right what you want to do with your life. Wish you the best

thank you so much, it brings me a lot of joy to think that i at least have the control over one thing in my life!! wishing you the best as well:)

 

[locked*n*loaded]

This isn't Scientology, is it?

 

[pumpkins334234]

no

This isn't Scientology, is it?

! but it's very similar, it has less control over the world though, much smaller:)