Grieving for future that i will never have

[FireFox]

I am sorry for this post. I really i am. There people who have it worse than me( living with awful illness, homeless, losing family. I am sorry if i sound self centred i really i am.

I feel like i have lost it all and can no longer live in this world.
Last night i watched the news. It was announced the UK will face a severe recession.The worst in history.

Already before covid 19 i struggled to find work now there is no work and wont be for a long time.

When was in secondary school i wanted to make the world a better place , fight against injustice , i wanted adventure in my life and be a wife to someone.
Everyday i cant stop crying for a future that is gone.
I will never have meaningful job thats makes the world a better place, i will never be a wife to someone etc.
Hearing the news annoucement i feel like it is all over. All that i dreamed of is gone. The future i wanted is all gone.
I am sorry but i have lost the will to live.
I am sorry if i am being dramatic
I am 23 this will be my second recession
I am not strong enough to live in this world.
I cant go on anymore.
Maybe it is my destiny to die by sucide.
I am sorry it is all too much.

 

[Kumachan]

maybe try getting any shitty job and work your way up from there? Also you can keep your SN handy and ready to go if it all gets too much.

 

[madbananas]

I am sorry for this post. I really i am. There people who have it worse than me( living with awful illness, homeless, losing family. I am sorry if i sound self centred i really i am.

I feel like i have lost it all and can no longer live in this world.
Last night i watched the news. It was announced the UK will face a severe recession.The worst in history.

Already before covid 19 i struggled to find work now there is no work and wont be for a long time.

When was in secondary school i wanted to make the world a better place , fight against injustice , i wanted adventure in my life and be a wife to someone.
Everyday i cant stop crying for a future that is gone.
I will never have meaningful job thats makes the world a better place, i will never be a wife to someone etc.
Hearing the news annoucement i feel like it is all over. All that i dreamed of is gone. The future i wanted is all gone.
I am sorry but i have lost the will to live.
I am sorry if i am being dramatic
I am 23 this will be my second recession
I am not strong enough to live in this world.
I cant go on anymore.
Maybe it is my destiny to die by sucide.
I am sorry it is all too much.

Im 25 and also from the Uk. What about a job in healthcare? There will be huge demand for that once this is all over, particularly in the mental health field

 

[Lefty]

I lived through the Great Recession. Unemployment highest since the Great Depression, maybe even more now. I'll probably live through another Great Recession or another Great Depression. I've also had trouble finding work. Computers is what I'm good and the jobs keep getting outsourced for cheaper labor. Sigh.

 

[Soul]

I'm sorry you feel so downhearted, @FireFox. I believe the pandemic might create meaningful work. Contact tracing, for example - apparently thousands of people are needed for that very useful job. Delivering food (meals, groceries) to housebound people is an important contribution. You can find something if you look.

I know it can be daunting to take the steps toward a life you can like. But you've taken steps before. You can do it. (((Hug)))

 

[Muirthemne]

You don't have to apologize for being upset. If you can't vent here, where can you?

I think it may still be possible to find work even with the recession. The world isn't going to shut down entirely. People still need to eat. Society keeps going.

But even if you don't, you can still make the world a better place. TBH I think for a lot of people the job they do for money is the least useful thing they do with their lives. Just be a good friend, be a kind person. I've seen you post kind replies to people here; you're already making the world a better place. If you can make someone else smile once in a while, that's making the world a better place.

 

[FireFox]

Im 25 and also from the Uk. What about a job in healthcare? There will be huge demand for that once this is all over, particularly in the mental health field

Care home work i am not allowed to do because my family are in the at high risk catergory.

My sister had sickle cell amenia and has been in and out of hospitals theought her life.
my mum worried naturally espically if i go outside.

My grandmother is elderly

My grandmother sister has lost friends who have died of covid 19 from working in the care home.
I have no health care qualifications or experience.
I just have a law degree

Supermarkets i have applied for but still get rejected.

I never had a job i feel like i am unemployable forever.

I am 23 and never worked(except voluntary).
It is so embrassing

 

[braketimez]

I am sorry for this post. I really i am. There people who have it worse than me( living with awful illness, homeless, losing family. I am sorry if i sound self centred i really i am.

I feel like i have lost it all and can no longer live in this world.
Last night i watched the news. It was announced the UK will face a severe recession.The worst in history.

Already before covid 19 i struggled to find work now there is no work and wont be for a long time.

When was in secondary school i wanted to make the world a better place , fight against injustice , i wanted adventure in my life and be a wife to someone.
Everyday i cant stop crying for a future that is gone.
I will never have meaningful job thats makes the world a better place, i will never be a wife to someone etc.
Hearing the news annoucement i feel like it is all over. All that i dreamed of is gone. The future i wanted is all gone.
I am sorry but i have lost the will to live.
I am sorry if i am being dramatic
I am 23 this will be my second recession
I am not strong enough to live in this world.
I cant go on anymore.
Maybe it is my destiny to die by sucide.
I am sorry it is all too much.

I'm sorry you're in so much pain.
I couldn't put my finger on what I've been feeling lately, but the title of your thread brought it to light...
I'm grieving the future I will never have, as well.

 

[FireFox]

maybe try getting any shitty job and work your way up from there? Also you can keep your SN handy and ready to go if it all gets too much.

@Kumachan I got rejected for shitty jobs even before covid 19 happend.

I applied for supermarkert jobs, coffee shop jobs, jobs office jobs and still get rejected.

The job centre didnt even help me find a job.

I am 23 and never had a job except voluntary work. Employers domt seem interested in my voluntary work
I have major insecurities because of never having a job.
I cant talk to anyone about it
I am so demoralised from the rejection
Employers have these ridoclous requirements
I am sick of it
I am no quality of life if i dont have a job.

I'm sorry you're in so much pain.
I couldn't put my finger on what I've been feeling lately, but the title of your thread brought it to light...
I'm grieving the future I will never have, as well.
[/QUOTE
Sorry
What is your future you will never have which your grieving for?

I cant talk to my family at all. My mum too busy working from home , dealing with other relatives in the family and genrally always says
" i have not got time for this"
My nan is too busy praying and watching religious tv. She believes do a masters is magic soultion to all this bullshit or she also suggests leave it in gods hands.
Employers in the UK want experience for everything. They have all these ridicious requirements espically for entry level jobs z
.gradautes are not valued in the UK
I hate being a graduate i wished i graduated so much late as i will not be having all these issues
Everyday i want to die as i see no relief from all this.
I cant do it anymore.

 

[Meowkin]

I am sorry for this post. I really i am. There people who have it worse than me( living with awful illness, homeless, losing family. I am sorry if i sound self centred i really i am.

I feel like i have lost it all and can no longer live in this world.
Last night i watched the news. It was announced the UK will face a severe recession.The worst in history.

Already before covid 19 i struggled to find work now there is no work and wont be for a long time.

When was in secondary school i wanted to make the world a better place , fight against injustice , i wanted adventure in my life and be a wife to someone.
Everyday i cant stop crying for a future that is gone.
I will never have meaningful job thats makes the world a better place, i will never be a wife to someone etc.
Hearing the news annoucement i feel like it is all over. All that i dreamed of is gone. The future i wanted is all gone.
I am sorry but i have lost the will to live.
I am sorry if i am being dramatic
I am 23 this will be my second recession
I am not strong enough to live in this world.
I cant go on anymore.
Maybe it is my destiny to die by sucide.
I am sorry it is all too much.

Everyone has their own pain. It doesn't matter than someone else's pain may be "greater" hand yours or their circumstances "worse". Your pain is valid. There's plenty to depressed about with the current situation and it seems the uncertainty is deeply unsettling for you. It's all right to feel the way you're feeling.

 

[madbananas]

Care home work i am not allowed to do because my family are in the at high risk catergory.

My sister had sickle cell amenia and has been in and out of hospitals theought her life.
my mum worried naturally espically if i go outside.

My grandmother is elderly

My grandmother sister has lost friends who have died of covid 19 from working in the care home.
I have no health care qualifications or experience.
I just have a law degree

Supermarkets i have applied for but still get rejected.

I never had a job i feel like i am unemployable forever.

I am 23 and never worked(except voluntary).
It is so embrassing

Would you ever be able to get a healthcare qualification? Like Apply for nursing for instance? Three year degree which is mixed placement and theory.
I'm sorry you feel embarrassed about your situation. Try to let that embarrassment go, we all have our own ways in life and yours may be different but it doesn't mean it's wrong. Working voluntarily is a great attribute, and would look great on college/university applications.
I've been employed but I still live with my mum and I'm very dependent on her. I don't know how to do basic things. I could learn but i have no energy.
I'm sorry that your family are all in the high risk category. Must be very stressful for you right now.

 

[Soul]

Contact tracers UK job: How to get job as contact tracer

CONTACT TRACING is a crucial part of the Government's coronavirus response, but how can you get a job as a contact tracer?

www.express.co.uk

 

[Cloudy]

Do you have a bike? When all of this mess will be over, you can apply to work as a bike courier with Glovo. It's a really shitty job because the pay is ridicolously low, but they don't turn anyone down, so it could be something to get out of the house and do some exercise while you're looking for something better.

 

[FireFox]

Would you ever be able to get a healthcare qualification? Like Apply for nursing for instance? Three year degree which is mixed placement and theory.
I'm sorry you feel embarrassed about your situation. Try to let that embarrassment go, we all have our own ways in life and yours may be different but it doesn't mean it's wrong. Working voluntarily is a great attribute, and would look great on college/university applications.
I've been employed but I still live with my mum and I'm very dependent on her. I don't know how to do basic things. I could learn but i have no energy.
I'm sorry that your family are all in the high risk category. Must be very stressful for you right now.

Thank you for your reply. What job do you do. Take care of yourself ok
I already have a degree already
Nursing is not for me i hate hospitals.
I more in to politics , security, reseraching, travel ,discussing ideas in a room etc

 

[HereToday]

I'm sorry I can't offer you any meaningful advice but if it's any consolation, I completely relate. All I ever wanted to do in life is help people. When I was younger i even remember writing a post online asking how I could volunteer in Syria lol. I only had one ambition in life and failed miserably. I also believe its my destiny to commit suicide, which is why the universe keeps pushing me towards it. No one can have this much bad luck...
Im so sorry you feel this way, and that the world wasn't kinder to you

 

[raindrops]

I am sorry for this post. I really i am. There people who have it worse than me( living with awful illness, homeless, losing family. I am sorry if i sound self centred i really i am.

I feel like i have lost it all and can no longer live in this world.
Last night i watched the news. It was announced the UK will face a severe recession.The worst in history.

Already before covid 19 i struggled to find work now there is no work and wont be for a long time.

When was in secondary school i wanted to make the world a better place , fight against injustice , i wanted adventure in my life and be a wife to someone.
Everyday i cant stop crying for a future that is gone.
I will never have meaningful job thats makes the world a better place, i will never be a wife to someone etc.
Hearing the news annoucement i feel like it is all over. All that i dreamed of is gone. The future i wanted is all gone.
I am sorry but i have lost the will to live.
I am sorry if i am being dramatic
I am 23 this will be my second recession
I am not strong enough to live in this world.
I cant go on anymore.
Maybe it is my destiny to die by sucide.
I am sorry it is all too much.

I didn't know this and I'm from the UK. You're in a better situation than me, I understand your pain though.
I was arrested and it was put on record, now I'm worried I'll never have a better job, I'm so sure my chances have been ruined, every employer will see me as a "criminal" ...my job is great but pays nothing, I cant afford my own place, I'm 26 and live at home with my grandmother. You're lucky, you have family, you have their support. Keep applying, keep going, trust me you'll get something

 

[mpnf]

Im 25 and also from the Uk. What about a job in healthcare? There will be huge demand for that once this is all over, particularly in the mental health field

That's exactly what I was about to suggest to her. She can work as a carer in a nursing home or in a mental institution. It can be really stressful and tired as a job but there's moments when you feel like you are valuable to others and that is important to your self-esteem.
Try that at least if you see yourself into it.
Wish you peace and if you don't have a mental or physical illness, just give it a try..your prince charming might be around the corner. :)