NSFW Goodnight everyone <3

[SophieMakesGames]

tonight I'm attempting this time with a method I hope will actually work, gn everyone, thank you for the space to vent and supportive and ncie people, and transTaxEvader, thank you so much for being my friend, I never really had any, I love you.

 

[pappapgold]

We all wish you a peaceful journey

 

[Namelesa]

Whatever happens, I hope you can escape the pain of this world

 

[CravingPeace]

Praying for peace. One love

 

[unscrewedmoon999]

May your journey be swift and painless. We all wish you the best.

 

[beeptad]

I hope you find peace

 

[The_Hunter]

i'm so sorry to hear you feel that way. if you want someone to vent to or hear your feelings out, then i can offer my chat & pm's for you--i know you feel massive amounts of emotion right now and i understand why you feel so suffocated. i just want to offer my acknowledgement in your deep emotion.

from, your fellow human,
hunter

 

[DeadSet]

I hope you find the peace you're looking for

 

[deadbidaylight]

I'm sorry that your despair has brought you to this conclusion. It's always hard to see another one of us leave, even though it's the nature of this forum. I hope wherever you end up you're able to find the peace you deserve and never have to know suffering again.

And remember, it's okay to change your mind. It's okay to make mistakes, and if you return back here we would embrace you with open arms. A failed attempt is not a failure. My heart is with you

 

[locked*n*loaded]

Peace to you now and always.

 

[Halfhourdays]

Best wishes.

 

[OptingOutSmiling]

Good night and all the best, I wish you to find peace in the universe, wherever that may be for you. Sending love on your journey.

 

[Sad German lady]

Sleep well

 

[FuneralCry]

I wish you the best.

 

[SophieMakesGames]

it's unfair that I keep waking up, it's not fair that I'm still alive, i do not wish to be alive...


I tried drinking 3 bottles of 16 oz niquel, it wasn't impulsive either, my best way of dying I can possible imagine is falling tosleep and not waking up, and niquel seems to allow you to at least feel like ytour asleep and fall asleep.

anyways, I couldn't hear, see, and was sweating sooooooooooo mcuh like every surface of my body was soaked like I had gotten out the shower,and I kept trying my best not to vomit (cus I knew if I let it out my system there is a higher chance I'd live) and more or less all the stmpyoms on the symptom chart except for seazures and hallucinations, which my friend says "hallucinations are like your norm so yeah..."

also idk how a seazure feels or looks like so I don't think I can for 100% sure say it didn't happen but what I can say is I couldn't see, hear, or feell anything, and it was comforting, blissfull almost at first.,

but then from no where for no reason a feeling that I need to survive kicked in and I stuck my fionger in my throguht, couldn't throw up, started freaking out and panacking, and adventually, threw up, then I was able to see (idk if I was just in too much pain before or if there was some other reaosn but I wasn't seeing anythingbefore) and it was really dark and was about 1am (I took everything around 6pm) and I threw up 2 more times, then stayed next to my fan uncovered sitting up for a bit breatyhing, then I sent goodbye messages to everyone, then took more, then went back to sleep,

and then I woke up this morning at 10am completly fine...

it feels so unfair and stupid... why couldn't I ahve died, I thoght it was supost to be lethal is it not?

bac to the drawing board I supose...

it's unfair that I keep waking up, it's not fair that I'm still alive, i do not wish to be alive...


I tried drinking 3 bottles of 16 oz niquel, it wasn't impulsive either, my best way of dying I can possible imagine is falling tosleep and not waking up, and niquel seems to allow you to at least feel like ytour asleep and fall asleep.

anyways, I couldn't hear, see, and was sweating sooooooooooo mcuh like every surface of my body was soaked like I had gotten out the shower,and I kept trying my best not to vomit (cus I knew if I let it out my system there is a higher chance I'd live) and more or less all the stmpyoms on the symptom chart except for seazures and hallucinations, which my friend says "hallucinations are like your norm so yeah..."

also idk how a seazure feels or looks like so I don't think I can for 100% sure say it didn't happen but what I can say is I couldn't see, hear, or feell anything, and it was comforting, blissfull almost at first.,

but then from no where for no reason a feeling that I need to survive kicked in and I stuck my fionger in my throguht, couldn't throw up, started freaking out and panacking, and adventually, threw up, then I was able to see (idk if I was just in too much pain before or if there was some other reaosn but I wasn't seeing anythingbefore) and it was really dark and was about 1am (I took everything around 6pm) and I threw up 2 more times, then stayed next to my fan uncovered sitting up for a bit breatyhing, then I sent goodbye messages to everyone, then took more, then went back to sleep,

and then I woke up this morning at 10am completly fine...

it feels so unfair and stupid... why couldn't I ahve died, I thoght it was supost to be lethal is it not?

bac to the drawing board I supose...

I spent my entire check on it :p I have a total of 5 bottles, 3 are empty now, idk if I should try the other 2 tonight sense 3 didn't work i doupt 2 will... but I also have no money, soooooo