Goodbye

[elfgyoza]

Making final preparations atm. About to hang myself in my bedroom.

It feels nice to actually say goodbye, since I can't do it to anyone I actually know. Calms me down a little, I wish everyone here the best.

Thank you all for keeping this community alive (lol, ironic)

Edit: wow just noticed I joined a year ago yesterday too

 

[falloutcarter13]

You sound pretty dang sure. I wish you a peaceful journey and I hope whatever you wish for what comes next comes true for you, whatever it may be. ='(

 

[PJFord]

Goodbye and have a peaceful journey.

 

[Silenos]

As someone also planning to hang myself at some point, I salute you. If you're very sure to proceed, I hope you tested your setup to make sure nothing breaks during your attempt.

I wish you all the best however this turns out, and I'm sorry it had to come to this. Farewell and go in peace.

 

[FrankieVallie]

Farewell. It seems you're confident in your decision and ready to go. I greatly respect that. I truly hope that you find eternal peace after death. I'll pray for you tonight. Maybe one day, in the afterlife (if there is one), we'll meet each other.

 

[W3akCr3atur3]

Good night. I hope whatever happens next to you is going to be better than this cruel life that made you do it.

 

[Meditation guide]

Making final preparations atm. About to hang myself in my bedroom.

I'm here if you want to chat, you can message me. If not then I wish you the best. It makes me sad to read that you are leaving but I respect your decision. It's yours to make of course. I have tears starting.

 

[Nymph]

Making final preparations atm. About to hang myself in my bedroom.

It feels nice to actually say goodbye, since I can't do it to anyone I actually know. Calms me down a little, I wish everyone here the best.

Thank you all for keeping this community alive (lol, ironic)

Edit: wow just noticed I joined a year ago yesterday too

Hope it works out for you and you can be happy!

 

[Worndown]

Have a good journey

 

[BlackCatTalk]

good trip and I wish you have all the peace you need

 

[deleted]

Rest in peace

 

[Living_Hurts_so_Much]

I hope you will find peace.

 

[elfgyoza]

Thank you all for the kind comments, everyone on SS is always so nice.
Unfortunately couldn't position the ligiture properly though, so I'm on plan B. Antiemetic, some benzos, and a lethal dose of heroin. Hopefully works but I'd hate to mislead everyone, I'll update if it doesn't

 

[6Judas6]

Hmmmm
Chances are you won't, but if you do, have a nice trip

 

[Greenberg]

Good luck; peace!

 

[snuff]

rest in peace mate. see you soon

 

[Incorrigible77777]

Safe trip! Will see you there.

 

[Sinai Silence]

Rest easy friend

 

[inactive]

Safe travels.

 

[TAW122]

I might be late, but I hope you have found peace.

 

[Deleted member 17949]

I'm sorry life has brought you to this point and I wish you a smooth journey bro

 

[Flump]

 

[elfgyoza]

Promised I'd update, wouldn't want anyone to find this thread in the future and think it worked.
I'm still here of course, such a failure lol, sorry guys

 

[I screwed up]

Its ok to back out. Glad u r here . we r always here with you... I know SI is a bitch ... Can't overcome mine

 

[Greenberg]

No shame! Welcome back.

 

[LastRide]

You're not a failure, and hey, if you think you are, welcome to the club, we all are, since otherwise we would not be on this forum ! Maybe I just ask (you do not have to answer if you hot feel like it), did you not take the heroin in the end because you decided it was not the right time to ctb, or did you go ahead but survived? If you survived, since I am quite interested in the heroin method myself, (it's not my chose method, but I have been experimenting a bit with H lately) - what dosage/technique of administration of H did you use? Just to prevent others and/or myself from making the same mistakes....

 

[elfgyoza]

You're not a failure, and hey, if you think you are, welcome to the club, we all are, since otherwise we would not be on this forum ! Maybe I just ask (you do not have to answer if you hot feel like it), did you not take the heroin in the end because you decided it was not the right time to ctb, or did you go ahead but survived? If you survived, since I am quite interested in the heroin method myself, (it's not my chose method, but I have been experimenting a bit with H lately) - what dosage/technique of administration of H did you use? Just to prevent others and/or myself from making the same mistakes....

I didn't back out, I just made a silly decision. I'd taken some benzos I had from a prescription to calm myself down before using the heroin and decided to watch my last youtube video while waiting for the antiemetic to kick in. I fell asleep..... :)
Woke up to my dad asking if I'd taken anything etc., he got rid of the H
I'm just stupid, I should've at least hidden the H while waiting for the antiemetic to work lol

I mixed about 30mg heroin with citric acid and ~1.2ml of water, which I was then going to heat and inject into a vein in my arm. The benzos were an extra since they don't interact well.

So the mistake people shouldn't make is, don't fall asleep waiting for the antiemetic :)

 

[Brokenwithbpd]

Heroin scares me