Goodbye

[NotGoneButNotHere]

The time has finally come for me to go through with my final attempt. Currently I have taken a good amount of pain killers and in roughly 20 minutes I'll be taking a stat dose of Meto. I have a feeling I will puke at least once so I'm prepared with a bag and towel to help contain it as best as possible. I have prepared a final playlist for myself that I will try to use to keep my mind occupied until I pass out which I hope is fairly quick and painless. I have a small fear of feeling like I'm suffocating but as long as this is my last day of suffering it's a risk I'm willing to take.

I have not been on this forum long and I haven't really interacted with anyone here a lot, but I would like to extend some gratitude to the moderators and owners of this forum for giving a judgement-free place to either talk with others, or to research hard-to-find accurate information. A resource like this website is very difficult to find in today's age so I really do appreciate it.

To all my fellow sufferers of mental illness on this forum, I really do hope a lot of you are able to move past this darkness that affects all of us. I really don't wish any of this nightmare on anyone and I sincerely hope that a lot of you don't choose the path I'm taking. As ironic for hypocritical as it sounds of me to say that, I just really wish all of you happiness beyond this misery and I hope a lot of you stay on the path of life.

I'll be around for some time before I take my SN but after that I will be wiping my ties to the site before finally CTB. Nobody will dig too much into my death but I like to be cautious.

Peace and love to you all. Hopefully I'll get to meet the legend Stan in whatever lies beyond this physical plane, if anything

 

[Azzy69]

Safe travels

 

[Chronicillness]

You don't need to be a long-term resident at SS for us to not have love for you. I wish you the deepest peace during your transition beyond this reality. Sincerest wishes and good luck.

 

[Meretlein]

Smooth sailing. I hope you find the peace you deserve.

 

[HereToday]

I'm sorry you feel this is the only way out. If it makes you feel any better, you'll pass out before the actual suffocating occurs so you won't feel it. Wishing you a peaceful transition. May the other side be everything you're searching for

 

[Carina]

Hopefully you'll find the peace you're looking for

 

[jgm63]

Wishing you a safe onward journey

 

[Lostbetweenworlds]

Even when I just got here, I wish you a pleasant journey and may you find peace at the place that we all go to one day.

 

[TAW122]

I hope you find peace and are able to go smoothly into the void.

 

[Farmmaa]

I hope your journey is peaceful

 

[overandout]

Wishing you a safe and peaceful journey

 

[Zoltiel]

Godspeed. I hope you have a peaceful ending

 

[brokenengine]

Be well on your journey. Best wishes.

 

[enjoy]

peace to you.

 

[lmroch]

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[LegaliseIt!]

Peace and comfort.

 

[Broken Chimera]

I hope things go smoothly for you.

 

[thablue]

I hope you find peace, rest well.

 

[Grandexit]

Safe travels. May you find the peace that has eluded you.

 

[enlightened_suicide]

Sending peace and love your way ! Safe travels <3

 

[MysticPerception]

So many people going lately. I'm envious honestly. I hope you find what you're looking for on the other side whatever that may be. Good luck and happy trails.

 

[Despondent]

Rest in peace and safe travels ❤ With love

 

[Skyview]

Serenity in your travels NotGoneBuyNotHere

 

[Nem]

Can only hope you have an anxiety free exit
peace/hugs

 

[Shinbu]

I agree with what you said about SS. This place is something indeed. Before I found SS I felt hopeless. I hope you find peace.

 

[less than]

@ NotGoneButNotHere
I hope you'll have a painless journey and you wont suffer whatever your decision will be at last. Wishing you peace and love.

Even when I just got here, I wish you a pleasant journey and may you find peace at the place that we all go to one day.

Welcome to your first post here on SS. I'll hope you'll find your way.

 

[Hopeindeath!]

I wish for you peace in whatever you decide.

 

[Time]

I'm sorry that life has brought you to this point. But if this is what you want to do, I hope that your pain ends & you find peace, NotGoneButNotHere. Safe travels.

 

[Lotus]

Have a safe and peaceful journey into foreverland.

 

[BabyYoda]

Have a safe journey